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I Still Love Ma Blogger, But...

2008-06-10T01:02:00.004+08:00

I Still Love Ma Blogger, But...

... sadly, I've been neglecting it for so long. Maybe cos uploading pics sucks most of da time, unlike Multiply which to me, is faster. And I can privatise some of ma posts there, free of charge while this one can't. The only thing I like about this blog is that it brings back fond memories & I can customise ma blog in any style I want to.

To ma current readers, I still blog but not so much here. U're still welcomed to visit me at ma Multiply ok? Very sorry for da neglect. I have something coming up & will make the announcement once da time is ripe :) . And maybe who knows... I'll also come up something new for this site! Do also link me up at ma Multiply if u like.

So Ma Birthday Falls On This Tue... What Does This Mean For Me?

2008-04-21T04:02:00.006+08:00

So Ma Birthday Falls On This Tue... What Does This Mean For Me?

I'm scrambling against these train of thoughts that keeping dashing through ma mind. I know, 'scrambling' isn't exactly a good word to mean , but hey, at least I'm being honest about it.

Thinking about all da unspeakable things I've been through all these years has made me more or less a stronger person, if not better. But somehow, it sometimes make me timid. Timid as in being too cautious about da people around me now. Timid as in overeacting, not being trusting. I think it's true when they they say your friends are your greatest enemy - in ma case, da people who know you too well are your greatest nemesis. In the early years of ma life, I'd thought that was supposed to be a good thing, u know how u always thought that they will understand u better than da rest when they know u in & out..? But people learn da harsh truth everyday that this fact backfires on u.Maybe what I'm talking about has got nuthin to do with ma b-day , haha. Let's not go further into that rite now. It's rather redundant & maybe I was just feeling a bit philosophical.

I'm no longer da simple-minded, rather immature 21-year-old. I'm gonna be 25, but it's not gonna be a cause for celebration either. By now I must learn to get down & dirty with sticky situations bravely (although I already did in many occasions, I still think there's room). I have to learn not to procastinate too, hehe... this is one thing I've been working on. Have to learn to control ma temper even in da most nastiest situations (yea this is hard... so hard). The only 1 thing I have learnt to do 2 years ago? Not to bear grudges. And it wasn't easy to tell off da devil inside of me to stop hating & hating. Sometimes I thought I failed, but prayers after prayers before I sleep at night, I'd wake up da next morning to lesser thoughts of what happened to remind me of da hate that followed, which I'm so thankful for.

I only have one wish for ma birthday... and that is to have da feeling of absolute peace in ma heart always.

I believe that with peace, comes happiness. With peace, comes achievement. With peace, comes love. And with peace, da light in our hearts will guide us through every step of da way...

Someone told me before, it's of no use living a wealthy life but constantly worrying about your properties, and no use having a successful career but deep inside u're really an unhappy person & it shows through your daily actions towards others. So I took ma cue from there. Peace is da greatest gift anyone could ever have in their lives, and this will be ma ultimate birthday wish for 2008. Insya-Allah, I will get it, so long as I don't lose hope & keep praying to da ONE above....and I'm eternally grateful to Him for having Atikah, Sham & da real friends & people who care about me in ma life. Alhamdullilah.

Flash Link...

2008-04-16T23:44:00.004+08:00

Flash Link...

I have more pics loaded to ma Multiply. Feel free to view it :)

Went to yet another campout & saw The Contender Asia @ the indooor stadium as well :).
I love watching Muay Thai matches! I have two male kuzzins who are uber crazy about da martial art. They have the punchbag hanging in their very small room, muay thai shorts and all... & practised whenever they can. Dunno if they still do? I have not seen them for a long time.

Hello! I've Survived 4 Nights Of Da Graveyard Shift... goofy grin

2008-04-08T00:23:00.013+08:00

Hello! I've Survived 4 Nights Of Da 'Graveyard Shift'... *goofy grin*

Yep... no shit. I'm working from 7pm to 7am for da whole month of April.

It was kinda difficult manning da Helpdesk on ma first night here. I got a stomachache in da morning, apparently due to 'perut masok angin' & da hoardes of cases from Police Coast Guard that kept coming in... but thank God, so far everything's quite smooth-sailing rite now.

I'm cross-posting this from ma Multiply to ma Blogger, so to all ma Blogger readers out there... Just becos I don't update much, doesn't mean I'm dead so pls don't forget me :). Proof?

Yup... this pic was taken @ da food-cum-karaoke outing we went to on da 5th of April.

Apparently I (or rather, we) enjoyed ourselves too much till we did not take a group pic :(. Sue & Mizan, Nurul & Helmi, and Sham & me had a good time stuffing our faces & poking jokes @ Newton. 3 couple dah macam 1 lori punya riuh. Just imagine? Each couple punya gila je dah cukup, let alone 3? Disastrous. Haha... I had a good laugh reading Nurul's multiply entry on our outing. We should organise more healthy outings like this. In fact, Sham & me are gonna join Sue & Mizan next week on their camp-out. Da 4th one for me... I should think?

On another thought, ma b-day's coming, Sham's b-day also... he wants to hold a joint-birthday chalet... hmmm... this month & next looks like we have to fork out lots of moolahs :s. Oh yea, there's da upcoming chalet from his former colleagues too. And, our 2nd anniversary is in June. He wants to buy us a new ring... we have been wearing this ring for nearly 2 years now, mine looks fine but as he's working in a harsh environment, there're bad scratches on his ring & ma engraved name can barely be seen. I'm quite excited at what design we will choose next. Well this time maybe we'll have our names engraved in the inner part instead of the exterior.

I don't know what to get yet for his b-day :(. While at work, he broke da LCD of da moby I bought for him, but with so many expenses on hand this month, will that be an option? And I still need to buy a baby gift for his sis-in-law who's just gave birth. Help...

Luckily ma cabbage patch's b-day is still a long way off.

I like ma daughter's latest pic, taken @ a playground near ma place. Her cheekiness never fail to rub off on me :) ... love u sweetpea.

I'm Dying From a Nervous Breakdown Today

2008-03-08T15:20:00.005+08:00

I'm Dying From a Nervous Breakdown Today

Not some cheapskate update just for da sake of updating.... but it's better that I blog about it rite now rather then I get busy again & lose the inspiration. There's several things spinning thru ma mind today.

Firstly,I keep thinking that ma 'fate' will be decided today.

And there's another thing that I hope for it to work out withOUT others thinking da worse of me.

And I pray it'll all work out tonite o_O ...

2ndly, I have rebonded ma hair again after 8 mths of neglect. But after I colored ma hair again, ma original dry-hair state has returned with a vengeance.

3rdly, ma ears are still reeling from all that drilling in ma office today. But at least the office look much more professional & uplifting with all da huge work-related posters pinned up.

4th, I managed yet another decent outing with ma lovely cabbage patch without the slightest bicker with the EX ;) .

To know more about da FATE thing I mentioned... u have to be one of da chosen people in ma Multiply contacts to read it, cos not everybody knows about it & only ma close friends & people whom I think really deserve to read it.

And yes, B, I hope u get to read this once u're back from Malaysia. Hope u enjoy your time there.

And do get enuff sleep. Thanks for accompanying me & Lina with our little adventure last nite.

Eh, korang jgn fikir lain eh.... ;p

PS: Sorry if I don't get to reply to any chatboxs msgs, again. Ma work comp filters just about anything. Luckily not ma blogspot or multiply too. *Sigh.

So Where Have I Been When Not Blogging?

2008-02-19T18:56:00.002+08:00

So Where Have I Been When Not Blogging?

Da answers are all here.

And more pics to be updated there later, when I have da time :)

Didn't mean to.

2008-02-18T07:29:00.005+08:00

Didn't Mean To...

V-Day itself went well for me...

We watched Jumper on 14th Feb after work. Disappointing, not as great as I expected. I Am Legend was waayyy better. As it was getting late, we went home after walking around Tampines Mall for a bit.

Da next day, ma turn to treat him... we went to Pizza Hut Toa Payoh to dine cos that was where we worked & met for da first time... but on da 3rd day...

I felt like such a pig.

I told him something which shouldn't have even be let out in da 1st place. Something that I really, really didn't wanna hurt him with.

When he already knew that I wanted to get him a new a new Garskin for his PSP Lite, cos I didn't know what to give him for Valentine's, he wanted to pay for it on his own.

U could have used da same amount of money to scout for a surprise gift for me, I blurted out.

Why oh why did that have to come out?

Well before that we had a little arguement but that did not mean that I would change ma mind about buying it for him. I am by no means materialistic, but if he didn't say that he will pay for it himself, I wouldn't have said that in da first place cos that certainly sounds like a spite.

And probably I was hurt that he didn't seem to appreciate ma gesture? I really do not know how that thought came to ma mind.

He felt bad about it da rest of da day... about not buying me anything for Valentine's.

I am really sorry. I do not mean that u should buy presents for me on EVERY occasion.

...but I think u should learn how to be more sensitive to da feelings of others so that the unexpected can't happen.

Once again baby, I am sorry for what I said. Thanks for still being a sweet guy to me at the end of da day.

I'm Baaack! For Now Lah :)

2008-02-06T12:39:00.000+08:00

I'm Back... For Now :)

How are u all doing?? Sorry for da slight hiatus :). I've been up with ma new job at ST Electronics lately... still have a lot of things to learn there. I'm pretty terrified thinking about how long I'm gonna learn all those IT stuff due to ma non-technical background, Well most of da peeps here had none too, so I'm hoping that I'll keep up like them.

After ma contract ended at SSC, I spent a lot of time with Sham & Atikah... going out with ma close pals Lina & Shaz to karaoke, spending time with ma mum & also couch potato-ing; catch up on all da good TV shows I missed when I was working non-stop. I have never felt so relaxed before in that entire week. But of course now it's back to work.

I received pics of our SCSM '07 Sponsors' Appreciation Lunch at Marina Mandarin from ma former colleague at SSC today... so delighted with them :). Will put da pics up & some from ma new workplace soon for u guys to see how I'm doing. Sorry I have to cut it short, I'm still at work. And sorry I have nothing interesting to say at this point & being boring :).

Lastly...

Gong Xi Fa Cai to all ma Chinese counterparts!!!

PS: Work, work, work, work. U must be thinking that I'm REALLY getting boring .

Lost In Ma Lil' Thoughts.

2008-01-24T09:46:00.000+08:00

Lost In Ma Lil' Thoughts.

So it's confirmed. Tomorrow's ma last day here at the sports council. I have to hand over ma work to Kai Long by lunch tomorrow & explain da last neccessities to him. ChampionChips, haiz... still 'no hope' to collect that much yet. Runners' Certs, I have to try finish ma lot today so that Kai Long don't have to struggle with extra load.

So I wonder what will I be doing from da 26th till da 31st, till I commence with ST Electronics on da 1st. Oh yea... 26th & 27th will fall on this weekend. Sat 2.30pm I'm fetching ma daughter from her dad's :) and bring her to ma mum's place where ma sister's kids will be there too. Baby (Sham) will also come to collect da old computer from ma mum in the afternoon before accompanying his younger bro & their family to 'propose' to his gf :) (congrats, Ashik)... then, help ma mum take care of da 3 naughty kids while ma sis has an appointment with da hospital in da morning.

So from da 27th till da 31st... Uhmmm well. I dunno what to do cos baby will be working office hours. By da time he comes back from work he'll be so shagged. Hmm... we'll see. Sleeping, maybe? *Grin*

Ok... I will blog again. For now I have things to do in da office.

It's 'That Time Of Da Month' Again.

2008-01-21T12:33:00.000+08:00

It's 'That Time Of Da Month' Again.

I really envy girls who don't have to grapple with pms & stuff :( .

With all da things that has been happening around me, plus all da cramps I'm having, it is not doing me any justice.

I'm hoping to leave the sports council by da 25th, as I'm starting ma new job on 1st Feb, but ma supervisor wants me to leave on da 31st.

But how... 31st will be a thursday & da next day I commence work. As Helpdesk Engineer I'll only get alternate weekends off. It'll be very tiring for me to leave SSC today & start work elsewhere tomorrow....

I need some break in between...

Actually I'm so not mentally prepared to leave. As ma contract is ending ma workload has started to pile up as well for me to clear... and if ma fears are founded, I'll have to pass down ma work on an intern or another temp EA like me. Thing is, will they truly understand ma job scope & will they deliver it well & and on time..? I will be very busy with ma new job to answer calls in the office, the job scope is TOTALLY unlike what I'm doing in SSC. I'm afraid I may not be able to render help when any of ma colleagues in SSC call for some enquiry. Or am I worrying too much?

Oh I'm so messed up over work :(

Runners & their representatives have been calling my HANDPHONE up to complain about their marathon race certs. Who gave them ma number? Da RECEPTIONIST... *major eye-rollage*.

Aku pergi jamban pun MESTI ada org call hp aku nak enquiry!

The certs have been folded into HALF & chucked in their mailboxes. This sucks like hell! Even in LANDED PROPERTIES, the postmen are doing that, even though they could have just called for the owners or their maids to come down & collect their mails. What is this???

I have made a complaint to Singpost on behalf of SSC but they have not gotten back to me. Yea rite... does your 'in charge' really exist at all?

Now I have to reprint back all da certs, laminate & post them all out again. But I always advise them to come collect at our office in Kallang if they really want da certs in its original perfect condition.

Some last minute change of addresses... that too, I have to reprint & resend da certs.

Haiz... bila mau game?

Wrong/Incomplete addresses, resulting in returned certs, I have to call them up for da right addresses & resend. Ah, & ChampionChips I still have a LOT more to collect. Is it so hard for them to return us such a tiny electronic thing till I have to call these remaining 4600+ up? I wonder how they collected it effectively in previous years without people trying to dodge da R&R (rules & regulations)?

Everything seems so wrong, just when I'm leaving soon.

Even ma relationship seems to be slightly affected, indirectly due to all da 'kepos' I mentioned before (sorry lah eh)....

If they're all out to make me fall, I'll always make sure that I'll stay stronger than they ever knew. I am not the old me that they could push over. I will NOT sit & cry about what's happening around me.

You will see.

I'm so PMS-y & moody, so hear me roar...

*Gives out a mousey squeak*...

Yea.. yea rite... da nonsense ends here.

Take care of ur own filthy asses ;)

2008-01-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

Take care of ur own filthy asses ;)

Jangan nak jaga pantat org. Pantat sendiri pun berkerak tak cuci2.

To all kepo2 yang ada kena-mengena di luar tu,
I accept whatever problems that come with God's help. If this is da way u're all gonna do to me,

so. be. it.

Ode To Ma SSCeans...

2008-01-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

Ode To Ma SSCeans...

Hi everyone,

First & foremost, I would like to thank everyone before I officially leave (my temp assignment with Singapore Sports Council ends in Feb, if u don't know already). Have to say that I initially felt quite out of place, being the only temp EA with just an O Level & a mere ITE qualification... compared to those who've been through A Levels... diploma & stuff. So I feel rather priviledged to be given this chance to work with you people on Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon '07 & I never thought that the experience would feel so good. Yup, after all the tears, sweat & sleepless nights we finally made it :). For those I closely interact/work/makan kakis with, here's my special odes & thanks...

Rubin; Thank you for putting up with me & my many commitments outside work. Though you have had your bad days & busy schedules you have been patient enuff to accomodate me. And I really admire how patiently you handled disgruntled participants during the Race Entry Pack Collection (well someone told me that I was hostile to a couple who die-die want to change t-shirt size, haha). I could never be as patient as you, gosh.

Rakel; Stay elegant always. I've always loved your cool composure.

Yazed; I haven't thanked you for the cute X'mas prezzie :). You're one of the most jovial & friendly boss to have around anywhere.

Stanli; Hey, you. Yes, you. By the time u get back to office, I'll be long gone. The first thing I would like to tell you is, I'm sorry. For the little war we had before you left for your reservist. I really didn't mean anything when I supposedly used 'that tone' on you & like I said I was preoccupied with something else in my head else when you called me over. So I would like to apologise for making you pissed with the way I talked. Still despite all the minor frictions we had while working together, it was good while it lasted. U're the most hardworking & the most 'kanchong spider' guy I've ever seen. Just learn to relax a little & work will be less stressful for you in future mmkay?

Melissa Pei; Hey, gurl... looks like you're looked upon as the 'welfare taker' for part-timers/interns huh? Haha... Well, thank you so much for caring about my welfare & doing the little things for me when I was a newb (you should know what you did for me). And I really enjoyed the funny conversations we had in the cab after OT :)

Prissy; Yo! You too. Thanks for all the hospitality you've shown me (and remember the email help you wanted to render me when we were eating out with Mel Leong at 7-11? Hmmm... but I never got 'round to it). I so appreciate that effort.

Megan; You already left before me. But still I'm writing this to you. You're the BEST chat/makan/relax kaki I've ever had in SSC next to the intern before me, Melissa Leong. I miss you lah.

Melissa Leong; *Pokes & points up*. Haha. And thanks for all your guidance before you left & AFTER you left. Sorry if I initially bother you too much with my phone calls rgding registration. Stay in touch.

Kai Long & Wai Leong; Certified 'Sports Events Div Clowns'! Thanks for the laughs & brightening up my lunches with you people. Wish you guys all the best after you leave too.

Shawn; We haven't really worked closely but I always find you a little awe-inspiring. Melissa (Leong) once told me you're a very hardworking person, so that must be it isn't it?

Sheila; Stay loud & happy! I like your tough character & it's something I've always wanted to be.

Nathaniel & Cindy; Nat, thanks for the prata treat at Boat Quay & the little conversations we had the night before SCSM07. You always keep your cool & I like that. Cindy, you're very sweet & your humility amazes me at all times. And thanks for being the only SE who's always willing dine out with us temp EAs & the interns. Heeee....

Christina; Next to Nat, I really wonder how you've always managed to keep your cool & be calm even after TONS of work have been piling on you. Another person that I look up to & I'll take a leaf out of your book wherever I work.

PeiLing; If UK's got their own SUPER NANNY on tv, you'll be Singapore's very own SUPER AUNTIE! You're really like Doraemon you know? You have everything in your bag to save your life :D. Thanks for always attempting to shelter me with your umbrella under the hot sun (hehehe though I usually don't bother about whether I'm turning black). But all in all, I can tell that you're a very trustworthy person & who likes to help people in need. Please keep in touch ok?

Lee Huang; Thanks for being the sweet, kind lady who always shares her personal kettle with me when I'm down with instant noodles. Haha.

Chi Hua; A robust & one of the most outstanding volunteers at REPC despite her size :). Thanks a million for assisting me at Helpdesk. Stay smiley always.

Alice; My stay in SSC new office is too short for me to get to know you better. Still, I would like to thank you for just being my pretty cute-voiced 'neighbour'.

Kak Faridah; This goes out to you too, I have just gotten to know you 2 weeks before I left. Thanks for the little conversations & whatever advise regarding my daughter. I wish you & your family in good health always & cheers to our 5 year olds... :)

So what am I up to after SSC? I've been offered a position as Helpdesk Engineer at ST Electronics & will commence on 1st Feb. Initially I was required start early Jan but I felt it was too soon to leave as I still had post-event loose ends to tie. Lucky for me, they eventually allow me to start in Feb instead. So, new year, new job, new environment, new people for me, some complicated IT stuff for me to learn... and I'm nervous & excited at the same time.

For the rest I didn't mention, a big thank you for the great working environment. With all my heart, I wish you all success in your endeavours & do say hi when we cross paths again :)

Yours sincerely,
Nur Sari Ratna Binte Mohammad Alias
aka Anna Mohd

It's Da Little Things They Do...

2008-01-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

It's Da Little Things They Do...

Juz came back from Bugis with Sham. We did a round of mini-shopping (is there such a thing) lol... I bought maself a shiny brown bag, a pair of black sandals, a necklace & black pants, mostly for work. Sham wasn't left behind though... I bought him 2 shirts & a watch. Not much we did huh? Neway he's also super CHOOSY ;p. Wanna get him something, must bring him along. If not, there'll be 80% chance that he won't like the item & he'll be brutally honest about it :). Da last time I dragged him to shopping, he was so cerewet y'know? Satu benda haram pun tak berkenan. Hairan bin ajaib betui. And I thought I'M da one who's da choosy one. But he lovesss window-shopping though. Very hard to find guys that are willing to stake out a particular shop for a very long time just to look for what he or I want.

Something Sham did just now was very sweet, it could almost give me diabetes (ok, ok, it sounds corny)! Hahaha. I saw him crouching & scrutinising alphabetical handphone charms just to look for the alphabet A for me. And then we came across another handphone goodie shop & he did da same thing when he saw handphone charms, this time with actual names engraved on them. It was cute watching him concentrating on it & trying hard to find ma name. But we had no luck with both shops. Banyak sangat la org yang nama Anna kat Singapore ni eh?

Hmm... it doesn't have to be something very huge or expensive, but it's da little things they do for you that make u observe their comical mannerisms & love them more...

Don't worry lah... dia takkan 'kembang'. He doesn't really read ma blogspot & he doesn't know ma multiply address yet. Friendster dia pun terbengkalai. Akuuu juga yang manage. Hmm I miss his testimonials to me.

And I miss having outings with both him & ma little sweetie. When will we plan something again?

Oh, My, Gawd....

2008-01-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

OMG.

I know I'll sound like a freak, but I logged on to ma Facebook, & ma horoscope today sounds cryptically... almost accurate. HOW DID THEY KNOW???

Taurus HoroscopeGo to: Yesterday Tomorrow
Anna,A child's health or well being may be at issue today. There are opportunities for you to intervene and help, but you have to keep an open mind. Someone you see as abusive is in fact wounded and hurting themselves, and in order to set things right you have to get them to realize it.

And look at ma entry, two posts ago....

OMG.... I'm amazed. I have been feeling this way lately too.

*Stares...*

Hmmkay. Creepy but I'll regain ma composure. Will keep a close watch on da horoscope section day by day to see if they are somewhat like psychics ;p

Whatzuuuuup! Some Light-Heartedness To Share In Our Busy Lives...

2008-01-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

Whatzuuuuup! Some Light-Heartedness To Share In Our Busy Lives...

FREE YOUR PHONE - ZEDGE.NET

Believe me, this thing really put da smile back to ma face after days of stress & confusion :)

Click on da weblink below da vid for freebies for your moby, if u haven't known about it already. I downloaded tons of great-looking themes for ma Sony Ericsson off da site.

So there goes all hope.

2008-01-07T18:01:00.000+08:00

So there goes all hope.

Just got back from an appreciation lunch & prize giving function at the Taurus ballroom in Marina Mandarin... I'm as full as hell, but actually we didn't have our food there. I was there to WORK, to help with checking attendance & to distribute plaques to sponsors & outstanding volunteers.

So we went to Swensens Marina to have dinner cos we were all so starved, Dionne, Nat, Stanli, Chi Hua, Rubin, Shawn, Kai Long, Christina, Cindy & me. No pics lah... so hungry, no time to take pictures except for a formal pic at da ballroom!

Finally, I get to eat what I had been craving for since I last had it at Pizza Hut... baked chicken curry rice! But at PH they call it Curry Zazzle. We had a combination of platter, extra fries & a dessert. I thought since it was already 4plus we'd be going home, but we had to go back to office in 3 cabs... so *yawn* here I am relaxing like a snake who's just had its full human meal... yet something is at da back of ma mind at da same time.

There goes all hope. I wanted to go home early cos ma kid's being taken care
of at ma mum's place cos she has been having fever on & off for about a week, just like what I went through 2 weeks ago. By any chance did I spread it to ma cabbage patch? And I'm afraid by da time I rush back there, her dad would have taken her back to his home... no chance to see her & kiss her goodbye. Hope she's not going back to school tomorrow if she's still sick.

Please don't let mummy feel worried & do get well soon lil' darling. Mummy loves u.

:(

And B, sorry I can't meet you after work today ok? Still got a train of thoughts running through ma mind and I hope that I can get to mum's house on time to see how she is today. I love you too.

Can U Kindly Help Convey This?

2008-01-05T12:55:00.000+08:00

Can U Kindly Help Convey This?

Any idea what these are? They're called ChampionChips, or of course, Chips in short.

These chips are tied to runners' shoelaces in marathons or in other events for the timing mats to electronically detect the chips & record their run timings for each distance. Impressive technology.

Sorry, a blur close-up of an individual chip. Each barrel of the chip bears an unique chip code (eg, DW-4PZ2D) which electronically bears every runners particulars. The barrel must be facing outwards towards the direction of running as the mats can't detect displaced chips or chips that are merely put in your hands or pockets.

Unfortunately, I have around 4700++ more chips more to be collected. If any of you happen to know friends, family or relatives who participated in the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon '07 & have not returned the chip after their run, could you please help to convey this msg?

The admin & equipment fee for unreturned an chip is 50 bucks. There are many cases where people shoddily place their chips in extremely thin envelopes & post them to us. These chips tend to move to da corner & burst out of the envelopes. If this happens, runners have to settle this with Singpost & pay us the fee at the same time.

Moral of da story? Wrap it carefully in a small piece of paper, seal it with scotch tape & put it in a more sturdier envelope. If not, put it back in the zip lock where your runner's number bib was provided with, put them in A4 envelope & mail it. Please be responsible for it. People who refuse to pay the admin fee for lost/spoiled chips will be barred from future events.

Please mail the chips (attention to Anna) or come personally to:

Singapore Sports Council

230 Stadium Boulevard

Singapore 397799

Tel: 63457111

For more details, do call the SSC office & look for me or email me with your contact number at ssc_sbd@ssc.gov.sg or provodkative@hotmail.com. Kindly do not add me in msn if you don't know me. You'll be pretty disappointed to know that I sooo seldom log in. Seriously.

Ergh. Enuff of marathon things already.
After this important notification it'll be back to ma usual :).

Thanks for your great help.

After 3 weekends of beach-ing...

2008-01-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

After 3 weekends of beach-ing...

I am SUPER dark now!

Taken yesterday before leaving for countdown.

You see, 3 weeks ago I went for ma family BBQ-cum-campout at East Coast. 2 weeks ago it was at Changi with Sham. Then last weekend it was with ma Yishun Secondary School mates (including ma kuzz) at Sembawang Park. All beaches have been covered!

Mates for 11 years... Lina (top), ma kuzz Jana, Shaz with hew new 'do & me.

Just woke up from sleep & ready to go home in da morning... just look at ma eyebags & you'll know.

I forgot to Bluetooth over ma pics with Sham. Both our pics from the Maria Sharapova match (it was fantastic, by da way) & our countdown yesterday. Waiting for him to email it over....

Well it wasn't much of a countdown yesterday. By da time we got to Marina Bay da fireworks were just coming on. BANGLA-BANGLA YANG MELEBIH. JAKUN SIAK SATU-SATU, CAM MINTAK KENA JITAK AJE..

We bought movie tix at Plaza Singapura before coming to Marina with 14 of his former colleagues... it was hard cos some of them couldn't decide what movie to watch & we took 45 minutes just deciding on it. Finally we watched I Am Legend starred by Will Smith. More about da movie later.

Then we headed to Arab Street where they all wanted to smoke sheesha, but Sham & I realised that we don't even have time to wait for them to prepare 16 people's food, have our sheesha & WALK back again cos da movie would be starting at 2.35am & it was like already 1am, so we both took a cab back to PS, had some light food while waiting for them to come back. Sham was frustrated, me tired & ma tummy hurt from holding in all that urine, hah, but all in all... I'm not complaining. Thanks for inviting me along to your outing with your mates aite B.

Hmm... 2007 has come & gone. 2008 is here.

I don't dare ask for much.

I just wish to earn more and... have lesser or even ZERO fights with ma boyfriend.

Baby, I am sorry for the arguement that we had just now. But you were in da wrong too cos you just can't accept something that I mildly pinpointed. You took it badly & thought that I was trying to condemn you. I wasn't. I just merely ASKED why. Why can't we solve arguements & misunderstandings amicably? Don't you hate it when we scream our throats out & assuming bad thoughts of each other? Aren't you sick of fighting? Well this was da question you asked just now. It leaves a bitter taste in ma mouth. I AM sick of our little petty fights. I do want us to be da mild-mannered & loving couple we used to back in '06. But we need to seriously work on it.

I need to keep ma temper in check, and you, need to learn to accept the things that people say to you. I didn't mean no damage or to hurt your feelings. I just don't understand why you couldn't do such a simple thing? That is why I call u up at home to ask. I hope you do understand by now. I don't want this to continue & drag on. I love you & everytime we have to go through shards of glass again it just hurts, ok?

And I certainly pray that you will get to fulfill your New Year's Resolutions and... our biggest dream. You should know what that is & I hope you'll always let that keep you going on whenever you fall.

And I hope all of you will have a blessed new year... Insya-Allah.

Updated: Us at Arab Street.

Got Tix :)

2007-12-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

Got Tix :)

SSC is giving its staff free tix to watch Maria Sharapova Live this Sunday evening at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. Da cheapest tix costs around 80 bucks, yup, I checked on da official site. Got ma 1st free pair last week but I wasn't interested so I passed it to ma kuzz who layta gave it to her daughter's tutor. When I told Sham about it, he said that he would love to watch da tennis match if only I had told him sooner. Hmm... then today, by a stroke of luck ma colleague gave me an extra pair. So he was delighted. I'm no big fan of tennis, I love PLAYING badminton but not watch badminton or tennis. But I guess it's fine, since he's happy I'll be happier. Just that no videocams or any recording materials allowed, like it says on da tickets. So can we bring our cameraphones in I wonder :S ?

And maybe Sham wants to watch the pretty Maria Sharapova rather than tennis itself ;p.

Jangan marah eh b? Just a joke la...

PS: BTW, I've just set up ma own Multiply. It's still in infancy stage as I do not know how to design ma own template yet but I would love to learn.
Add me up if u know me & u've got a Multiply too... http://annattica.multiply.com .

Merry X'Mas... Eve.

2007-12-24T16:35:00.000+08:00

Merry X'Mas... Eve.

Today.

Half-day at work.

Some makan-makan in office, biasalah... dah nak festive2 season ni.

One of da bosses, in his joy, forced us to down some Chinese liquor which I later learnt from a colleague that it's rice liquor *yucks*...

Nothing to do, no emails to reply, ma supervisor's on leave. People playing pool & tablesoccer.

Yes, u heard me, in ma office.

Though I was left 'unsupervised', I couldn't be as carefree as them all...

I'm still sick from last Friday & ma nose hurts like hell from all da sneezing. I was sickly as a child & dah tua2 pun STILL fall sick easily. Kurang Vitamin C tak..? Or is it da wretched December weather?

Also spent ma weekends camping (again) at Changi Beach with Sham... next time we'll find starfishies again & bring 'em home k baby?

Couldn't stand ma frustratingly pathetic condition, took a cab home, burned 17 bucks (ergh, B will nag) & I'm finally here talking to u people...

Mundane, aye?

Pictures taken last week.

Boys will always be boys.... Merry X'mas!

PS: To view last 2 weeks' pit-cum-campout pics, click to ma kuzz's Multiply!

Coming up...!

2007-12-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

Coming up...!

Ma stint in SSC ends Feb oh-nine... how I'll miss da peeps. They actually hired me on contract basis just for the administrative stuff & oversee registration for da marathon. Now I'm being offered another job as Helpdesk Engineer at a former colleague's place. She's been working there for 2 years. But I have to meet up with her boss who's also her friend, to talk about it... I wanna know what REALLY are da job scope like & what to expect. Ma big sis said da salary's worthwhile. But I also hope that da job is as good too. Something in which I can do an excellent job in, I hope...

Tomorrow till Sunday afternoon we're having a family outback :)... if I'm not wrong we do it like once every 2 years? We're celebrating da birthdays of two December babies in our family as well, ma kuzzin Ayu & another kuzz's daughter, Insyirah. Everyone's gonna be there, even Sham. Hope he gets his tent by tomorrow, else I dunno where he & ma kid's gonna sleep in if the other tents we have are packed. For your info, his eyes really can't 'tahan' staying up too late, haha. He has not been in night life for so long. As for me, I don't normally sleep (not all thru da nite, at least) if I go on a chalet or camping out. We prefer to chat & explore around... it's a waste to me if I sleep all da way. Looks like I'll not be having 'nuff rest (again) this weekend, haha. Sure tired like hell when I return to work da following Monday.

Speaking of tired, I really, really am. Torn da side of ma new work blouse whilst packing & carrying heavy things in the office. Oh, our divisions (Sports Business & Sports Events - ma division) are da last to move office, because we were all busy with marathon preparations. The other divisions have all moved from da National Stadium last month. Da rest of the offices now looks kinds eerie, especially when we have such 2 huge offices which used to house many divisions.

Ma desk alone, I had a total of FIVE heavy boxes that I packed! Two boxes of which weren't even ma own files... they belong to da 'predecessors' before me. Had no choice but to keep them with me just in case the others need to refer to those backdated files. Aargh... pening ah kepala.

Need to hit da sack now as I still need to pack da remaining neccessities for our camp 2moro morning, fetch ma kid quickly from her dad's & rush to ma aunt's at Yishun where our chartered bus will be waiting at 12...

Long Overdue!

2007-12-09T21:14:00.000+08:00

Long Overdue!

Slideshow ;)

These are da Singapore Marathon pics. Despite all da tiredness & having to burn 2 weekends for this event, I have no regrets & am glad to be able to go have gone through this valuable experience & to work with people from all ages & walks of life, da management & volunteers alike. Cheers to all of ya for making this a successful & memorable event. 40,000 runners this year, no mean feat ;)! Will be back to blog, so enjoy for now :).

That Ghetto Love.

2007-11-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

That Ghetto Love.

I'm still at Suntec, doing the REPC thing for foreigners this time... don't really know what I'm doing here except for assisting 'em on some complications & most of da part being... SURFING. Turnouts have been surprisingly low. I expected many more to come collect their race packs. After all, we still have about 14,000 ++ packs / bibs left uncollected.

I'm feeling colder as the hours ticked by. It's got absolutely nuthin to do with what I'm doing at work now but it just occured to me to make ma chilly hands useful & write about how I have been feeling lately...

I hate being da last in line, da last to know.

I hate not knwing what da future holds for me... especially da scarier ones in store (but is it better for one not to know..?)

I can safely say that I'm adaptable but still, I hate drastic changes to da norm.

... and I hate da fact how almost nuthin in this world could ever stay da same...

Tell me, WHAT will stay da same?

I Badly Need A Massage, lah.

2007-11-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

I Badly Need A Massage, lah.

So sorry for not blogging, I've been working non-stop for a week & it will go on till da marathon starts. No days off at da mo, weekdays in the office, weekends are burned at the Race Entry Pack Collection venues. Sham's sister's wedding missed. Ma body's aching, feet tired, blisters all over. Not that I'm complaining but at this point I really feel pretty much demotivated to blog because of extreme tiredness. Nevertheless I still enjoyed ma time with ma incredible helpdesk team. I will miss u people A HELL LOT. Thanks so much for volunteering. U were all fast, cooperative & were good problem solvers, which was way out of ma expectations. And most of all, u have done a good job helping me at Helpdesk. Please keep in touch, u all have ma mobile number & ma msn addy aite.

Erm... some ppl seem to be missing here.

Da 'problem solvers ' at da most difficult counter, haha.

See how long da counters are? All to accomodate 40,000 runners.

U see, ma volunteers were bored. So they decided to make a 'SUDOKU' outta their shirts.

and even something worse...

Getting brazen after it's all over. And I'm waiting for da rest of da pics from some of ma team members & ma colleague, Joshua. Will put 'em up soon :). Thanks Frances for these pics! Really appreciated. Sorry if da pics seem blur & unattractive. I can't be bothered to edit them & can't talk much rite now, badly need sleep :S

So U Heard It From Me ;)

2007-11-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

So U Heard It From Me ;)

I dunno what's wrong with me. If I had a boring phone, I wanted a more fun & colourful one. If I bought it already, I want ma phone to be SERIOUS. And it goes back & forth like playing joget. By da way, I broke ma week-old pink Motorola. And don't ask me why. Someone should know better :). Broke, as in da casing alone, but with a badly cracked LCD. So I got maself a 3G phone. A serious, black phone.

And one of da most affordable of da lot. After SO much recommendation from a friend who co-owns a mobile phone shop... cos I'm not exactly a fan of LG. It's also perfect for pple looking for their 1st 3G moby who don't wanna burn a large hole in their pockets.

I'm surprised to find some interesting facts about this phone after looking around online. Just read on. Specification-wise there's nothing particularly special about da LG KU250. It features a 1.7" 176x220 pixel display, 1.3 megapixel camera, a video calling camera, microSD expandable memory, an MP3 player and Bluetooth. The LG KU250 also has an email client and web browser and PC synchronisation capabilities. Impressively, da LG KU250 weighs just 75 grams, making it one of da lightest 3G handsets on the market.

Although da KU250's specification isn't a patch on a high-end 3G device such as da Nokia N95, it's certainly good enough for most people. And priced at around €100 / $130 / £70 before tax and subsidy, it's clear that da LG KU250 offers good value for money.

One niggling question is this - just who is da LG KU250 aimed at? It's around three times da price of da Motorola FONE F3 which is aimed at emerging markets worldwide, so it isn't exactly da first step on the mobile phone ladder. In truth, most 3G networks are n countries where that KU250 will cost around a week's wages - it's quite popular in da Philippines for example, where it costs around da equivalent of two week's wages. Don't forget, that da $130 price buys you a phone, MP3 player, digital camera and more. It's certainly a better - and cheaper - phone than Nokia's base 3G model, da 6151. And although it doesn't exactly wow you with its looks, it has a nice tidy design that looks very presentable. Ma only grouse is, da 3G For All wording on da LCD sounds cheesy (yea, da actual phone has such wordings on da bottom part of da LCD) & that da display is a tad small for me. Other than that, it's incredibly light for a 3G phone. I like its clean-cut design & da delightful blue backlight of da number pad.

So now I want a colourful phone *grin*!

Nah... will play around with this for a while more, lah. Or even get another. Haha.

Happy Birthday!

2007-11-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday 25th Birthday to ma sweetest & lurrveliest kuzz, Jana. May you have a great time in Bintan & may you have everything you wish for in 2009! *Wink*

- From your future bridesmaid ;)

So How Come Our Brains Are Still Not 'Cooked'?

2007-11-07T17:42:00.000+08:00

So How Come Our Brains Are Still Not 'Cooked'...?

Please read it carefully.
1 Egg, & 2 Mobiles 65 minutes of connection between mobiles. Assembled something as per image:

Initiated da call between da two mobiles and allowed 65 minutes approximately...

During da first 15 minutes nothing happened;

25 minutes later da egg started getting warm; 45 minutes later the egg is hot...

65 minutes later da egg is cooked!

Conclusion: The immediate radiation of da mobiles has da potential to modify the proteins of the egg. Imagine what it can do with da proteins of your brains when you do long calls. Please try to reduce long time calls on mobile phones.

Hmm... agaknya aku ni ada sikit biol pasal pakai handphone lama sangat tak..? Protein dah rosak. Tapi tak keras2 pun otak aku??

Scary or just fake? One thing's for sure, there's a new term to da word, vegetable (brain dead). Imagine pple saying this.

*In between sobs* "... oh no. He's been on da machine for 1 month now. Is he becoming a potato???"

Neway, if u got a decent, teeny weeny bit of scientific knowledge, who's to say that you can't try this at home...?

And So Da Next Paycheck Goes to...

2007-11-02T02:30:00.000+08:00

And So Da Next Paycheck Goes to...

Running shoes!

It's funny how I just love to take long walks at lunch hr. Away from the stuffy& constricted office. Away from all da maddening paperwork. Although it's very warm outside, somehow I feel refreshing. Imagine, da distance from National Stadium & Kallang MRT is so far away. There used to be a shortcut through the PA (People's Association) but there's no longer a gate that we can cut through to get to da stadium. I have to walk some distance, cross a bridge, walk to the far end, dunno what place it's called but there's a river where people always go canoeing (or is it kayak-ing, uh... I forgot which is which, SERIOUS), then turn to da left & walk, turn right & walk some more, reach the PA (at last), and finally get to Kallang MRT! After that, just buy cigarette only. Irritating rite??

Colleagues has been asking me to join em for lunch or evening runs... but I turned them down cos I have no shoes. It's damn pathetic now, considering that I used to be rather sporty & carefree at school. Da 1 time I really got crazy with shoes when I was with ITE Balestier. Converse high-cut shoes used to be very 'in' among da students there... girls wear what they like be it colorful or not... & we frequently wear pants to school rather than da (again) constricted skirts. It was irritating whenever I tried to bend down and tie ma shoelaces da boys would look, so I simply gave up on da school skirt. I used to be a huge fan of Reeboks shoes too. And sporty bags. How I miss those times...

I've surfed Reeboks, Adidas & Nike sites but so far I have not fallen in love with any shoes they showcased in da sites :(. Even did an analysis on what kind of shoe is best for me but I think I really have to SEE & FEEL them before I could fall in love with them. Hey, after all we're talking abt shoes... not men.

And what am I doing here? I'm still up sorting out da database for Singapore Marathon which I'm handling. Only reached home from work at 12.20am, eat, bathe & hit da comp. How I wish I could finish these like, ASAP. I'm so tired... really mentally tired. Tired of da stupid last-minute people who die-die want to register when it's already C-L-O-S-E-D. Like their lives depend on it. It causes a lot of delay & exasperation on ma team when we're already so rushed for deadlines.

... To people who still think of emailing us just to 'make oneee laaaast exception' like u always wrote in your subject headers, I can only tell u two words, forget it. I don't mean to be rude, just being blunt. We need to handover all da FINAL database of runners for da production of runner's & finisher's shirt, champion chips, runner's bib and also for the Race Entry Pack Collection. It all have to start already. As much as we had been trying to make provisions for 11th hour registrants before, I hope u people can be understanding towards our situation on our admin side of things too.

Ok I'm slacking off already. If I keep on blah blah blah-ing I'm gonna fall asleep rite here. AND I MUST KEEP AWAKE to carry on with ma work :(. Gotta dash for now.

*Haiz ngantuk nyer....

PS: If u noticed, I've not updateD ma archives. Pardon me for da slip-shordness, will get ma butt to it when I'm more 'clear'. Too weary & sleep-deprived to deal with even small amounts of HTML stuff.. and as if I have a lot of time.

The Aftermath?

2007-10-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

The Aftermath?

Is there any..? I don't know yet. We seem to have resolved things but have u ever heard of da wise saying, it goes something like 'People only believe in what they want to believe, not da truth out there'?

Delve deep into it. Try to decipher what I mean.

We talked da way we talked when we first got together. It's been a long time since u asked 'have u eaten?'. And it seems like years that we actually talked amicably on da phone, no tones raised or stretched.

Have things become so routine or mundane that we turned out this way? Do we take each other for granted? It's funny how sometimes a huge bomb like this (see previous post) can make a couple 'work' again.

(And) u have said that u would improvise, change da way things are. And never do that anymore. Will u keep your word?

The saying applies again here. I'm like desperate to believe in u, believe what u said. Cos I love u. But then again I might be blind to da harsh reality that u may do it again....

I guess... only time will tell. And when it 'tells'... I hope it heals as quickly too.

My head & da back of ma neck has started to hurt again. Doc said I had a whiplash. Thank goodness ma knees are alrite now. To cut a long story short, when I was out Hari Raya-ing with ma friends... a lorry rammed into our MPV from behind. Alhamdulillah, all of us only suffer light injuries... I was at da back seat & somehow I fell from ma seat, straight on ma knees. Weird isn't it.That sure hurt like hell though no bones broken.

Oh, and I'm dying to make ma blog turn back to NORMAL... sans all da hatred.

HURT & UNPLUGGED!

2007-10-25T15:48:00.000+08:00

HURT & UNPLUGGED!

So far I have not blogged about ma problems with YOU at all. But you have not really considered ma feelings before you let da public in on your emotions in ur blog... about me... & some of da shit that has been happening. Do u think they are stupid? Do u happen to think that they wouldn't have da slightest clue what da hell u're talking about? U're fucking wrong.

I have not done this for the longest time either. I just hate slamming people (on blogs). How I wish the anger can just fade away at a blink at an eye. But no, sweetie, it really doesn't work that way, not in this life. You tell me how to appease ma anger? Oh wait, I should be da one to ask you to do that for ME.

U tell me she's cross-eyed & ugly? And that u're not interested in her? Don't gimme that! Self-check 1st, takmo MACAM PAHAM... u gave her your number like it was nothing to you. KUCING LAPAR MANA NAK REJECT IKAN ATAS PIRING? Oh, crossed-eyed women got no vagina is it?? Still a woman what. This is not a case of da green-eyed monster la. But it's about your damn principles. Now I do not know when did this rule apply to this relationship, that u can freely distribute your hp number like pamphlets while I should shun men who want to get to know me. Kenapa, awak kesian sangat kat dia pasal dia keRO, tak laku?! Go & marry her, I wouldn't even bat an eyelid. But don't do things behind ma back. How do I trust you that u haven't gone out on a date with her at all...? You have known her for ONE WHOLE FUCKING MONTH & I'm completely in da dark! And I've been so honest to u about ma social life all along? What da fuck are u doing to me? This is already da 2nd time this sort of thing happen.

And that was one hell of a girl. What a muthafucking coward she was. If not for the minor accident I had that nite, I wouldn't have da hunch to listen to his voicemail, tu pun dah lama tak dengar. Suara takmo step manja ah gerl. Tak padan kero eh ;p. Dah tahu org ada matair, nak kenal2 jugak. Nampak gambar aje dah TERPEGUN?? I only called her nicely to know who she was, and she hung up immediately. Da 2nd time, she simply made me 'wait long long' b4 rejecting ma kol. That freaking bitch. I couldn't contact ma BF that nite & I was at the hospital receiving outpatient treatment. Again, I only wanted to know who she was & tell her to convey da msg to him should she managed to reach him 1st after he comes home & charges his moby. But no, she chose the other way round. SHE CHOSE TO INCUR MA WRATH.

Eh sundal, if u got no guilty conscience, why were u afraid of me? I hadn't even intoduced maself yet & u hung up. U expected this to happen & yet still play around with that little matchstick in your hands huh? Kalau kau tak buat salah, ataupun tak fikir apa2 kat matair org, kau tak akan takut, BODOH. U're the cheapest thing I've ever seen in ma life, sungguhpun kau tak lawa! Eh takde rupa takpelah pompuan, asalkan diri mau jaga suah! Tapi dua2 kau takde. Muka pon SCRAP, langgar lori punya. Perangai lak mcm sial lagi.

*Takes a deep breath*...

Ok. This has been intense, But please try to understand. I was injured, head spinning & needed him at that time. Instead, such surprise happened. Is it fair to me? I have not done this to him before so why is this happening? B, I won't try to stop u from continuing your friendship with her la, after all, u contacted her behind ma back... what's to stop you from doing it again if I restrict your friendship huh? That will hurt me even more.

You claimed that u have never met her, only know what she looks like by description. WHATEVER. But remember I told you? If it goes further & further beyond friendship, I WILL NOT HESITATE TO LET YOU GO. I won't be fighting over a dick with some shameless fugly girl. And u know what disappoints me da most..? I look up to you a lot & u've always potrayed urself to be da sweetest & da best boyfriend anyone could ever have, but in the end... u snuck around. How long will this facade of yours last huh? NI BENDA KARUT SEMUA AKU TAK PERNAH BUAT!

As the saying goes, they start small... then move on to 'win big'. Will u try & do something worse..? I dunno.... really.

Just tell me if these are all fair to me? I am so HURT.

I'm So Busy o_0

2007-10-19T19:52:00.000+08:00

I'm So Busy o_0

Sorry cos at the moment I'm busy with da Singapore Marathon preparations to sit down & blog properly. We wish u camat beraye... Will put more pics when they're up. Watch this space...

At ma aunt's place, 1st day Raya...

Ma lil' sis & me. Seriously bored with da same hairstyle...

Da 'Indian Brothers' & future in-laws... that's ma half-brother. Don't they look good together in this pic? *Hmm like Datuk K lah awak punya baju kurung...*

Haiz... bila masa aku beranak lagi?? Ma kuzz's daughter la...

A closer look at Irdina. Makes me wanna have another baby!

Haa... this is ma REAL baby..

And she loves wrestling too.

Hahaha...Yanni.... Yanni!

2007-10-11T14:20:00.000+08:00

Hahaha...Yanni.... Yanni!

Aku baru baca blog kau. Pasal geylang tu. Kau ni apadah... buat bodoh sajalah dgn mat2 & minah2 show-off tu! Tu semua biasa jugakla kalau dah nak raya ni. Yang penting bila kau pergi sana, u are happy shopping with ur loved ones.

If u go to ma former schoolmate's blog, scroll down a little & u'll see what I'm talking about (eh Rohani, kan bagus aku kasi kau exposure sikit...), heheheh. But do take everything she says with a pinch of salt mmkay? Even though she sounds harsh, at least she's honest.

This year, I've been to bazaar geylang only 2 times. If break - fasting once at Haig Road also counts, oklah...make it 3. Anyway I work at Kallang Stadium so I can make ma way down anytime.

Geylang's pretty much da same year in & out... I went with Sham & his friends on da 1st trip, & just da two of us on da 2nd. Seriously I don't have da time to make frequent trips there so we just went there for some serious shopping for Raya clothes.

I still love da junk food & da atmosphere there... & of course, da sucky posers that Yanni was talking about are there still... but I didn't let it bother me & I was too busy looking around & enjoying ma goofy jokes/shopping with Sham. It's this time of da year that all of us get to come together & shop as a family,,, don't talk abt maself cos I'm living on ma own but seriously, how many youngsters wanna shop with heir families frequently nowadays? They normally go with friends so I guess this is just da time to do it.

I'm sick today & I'm not in office. Came across this interesting webbie, http://www.moillusions.com/ . Go check it out & da links on da right, it's very cool. Especially for those who love graphics & anything of art.

It's raining kittens & puppies, wonder if it'll be like this on 1st day of Raya?

I notice that ma blog has been very wordy lately, no pictures. Perhaps it's time for a change? :D

Hmm... anyway, wishing all muslims, Selamat Hari Raye kepada semua..Kaum kerabat, sahabat handai, datuk nenek moyang, cucu cicit, saudara mara, dan keturunan-keturunan yg sewaktu dengannya....!

And So I'm Watching Her Sleep.

2007-10-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

And So I'm Watching Her Sleep.

She's this peaceful, serene & innocent angel when she sleeps. But when she'a awake, it's a whole lot of different story... :)

It's that time of da week again when I take ma kid home for da weekend. I'm supposed to bring her to ma aunt's nearby for a break-fast session with da rest (break fast, not breakfast ah...) but she slept before I could get her ready to go there. Now I wonder how I'm gonna put her in bed tonite. She's got a tendency to sleep very late if she naps during the evening or afternoon. And she's a quite a handful. Sham was here for da nite... he's gone home so there's no one to help me wake her up. He's quite good at that.

AND how to go there when she's asleep? At least she could play with ma nieces/nephews when she's there :s

Haiz...

Should shut down da comp & give her da wakey.

Baybee, thanks again for da black & silver kebaya u bought for me for Raya. U're da first guy who can really help me choose ma clothes. U know ma tastes well.

Love da kebaya & new earrings u bought.

Love Atikah & Shameer!

2007-10-04T15:06:00.000+08:00

Angst.

Reason being me not blogging is I am so frustrated with things lately... it probably doesn't hurt da pple around me but still I think I can do with some Anger Management class (if there's any at all in this country).

Or even a long vacation in Hougang Chalet.

I'm so tired I can't wait to go home now...

20 Things U Probably Do Or Don't Know About Me.

2007-09-28T10:47:00.000+08:00

20 Things U Probably Do Or Don't Know About Me.

1) I don't give out ma MSN addy to just any Tom, Dick or Harry. I seldom log in anyway &
I normally just chat with ma friends/relatives or ma boyfriend.

2) Ppl who walk next to me will complain that they are all tired out- I walk too fast all da time,
even ma boyfriend is complaining. Sorry... sorry. (Too bad I can't kick literally kick maself..)

3) Ma insomnia can get really horrendous.

4) I look sleepy most of da time that I depend on ma mascara way too much.

5) I forgive easily (though I know sometimes it's being taken for granted).

6) On the other hand, I can be so cranky in da mornings that u wish u've never met me.

7) I dream of working from home & save maself from da misery of jostling with smelly crowds
on the MRT 1st thing in the morning.

8) I smell good almost all da time & I'm really not lying...

9) I used to get a lot of chatbox hatemails at ma old blog cos ppl didn't like ma
apparently-harsh writing style (and it has mellowed down as ma old readers hopefully
can see).

10) If there's anything that ma kid inherited from me, it's being a tv addict,
hating girls' toys and... oh, she has ma nose & lips :)

11) I preferred He-Man, Transformers, Carebears, ma cherished Smurfs & Legos-
I dismantled da heads of too many Barbies till ma mum finally gave it up *triumphant smile*

12) I still get stomachaches when I'm too nervous :S .

13) Sometimes I download too many evergreens, I feel almost too 'nostalgic' at 24.

14) I'm a (fashionable) cheapskate. Most branded stuffs were gifts so why bother..? o_0

15) I'm studying some HTML online maself. Which makes me wonder how I'm gonna
keep up cos ma memory has da lifespan of...

16) I finally stopped ma nail-gnashing habit 9 years ago by regularly
painting ma nails so that I wouldn't have da heart to bite 'em pretty nails off (ma
greatest achievement in abolishing a bad habit so far...).

17) It's so weird how I can really tolerate hot weathers but have such low threshold
for cold offices.

18) I'm approachable even though ma face says otherwise, in public. So I won't bite
don't worry.

19) To Sham: I've got too many brown tops in ma wardrobe. So don't gimme
any brown outfits for ma birthday mmkay baybee? (Hmm.. I don't mind brown bottoms
though ;p)

20) Lastly, don't speak to me too slowly or beat about da bush cos I get irritated by that
quite easily. Oh well... maybe it's becos I'm just loud & impatient or something....

Mmkay I was actually bored in office but now I'm handed a task that I gotta complete asap. Blog layta...

(And Mel if u see this, don't forget to bring ur cam on ur last day of work for some
old times' sake photography wokey?)

:)

Ma New Hp Number...

2007-09-27T01:58:00.000+08:00

Ma New Hp Number...

+65 93893646

What a nice number, isn't it?

Actually, ARE U MAAAD? I'm just kidding. I'm not up to invite stalkers :)

Saw this in Friendster Bulletin & I thought it's rather fun, not to mention as if like I don't have
more important things to do :P...

So here goes...
Put the number representing what you
are depending on the question. At the
end it will look like a phone number

first put a +6593

Here's your new digits:
----------------------------
1st number, put what you are
1- gay
2- taken
3- single and what ever happens,
happens
4- single
5- secret
6- single but like someone
7- taken and confused
8- single and unavailable
9- have lost all hope
0- single confused the fcuk of
-------------------
2nd number, put your current Mood
1- Nervous
2- Bored
3- Confused
4- Just fine
5- SADDDD
6- Hyper
7- Annoyed
8- Angry
9- Tired
0- Happy
-----------------------
3rd number is The color of your shirt
1- Black
2- Pink
3- Red
4- Orange
5- Blue
6- Green
7- Yellow
8- Brown
9- White
0- Other
-------------------------
4th Number is the month you were born
in
1- jun.aug
2- march
3- feb
4- jul
5- jan
6- april
7- dec.
8- Oct.nov
9- may.
0- sept.
-------------------
5th Number is your Favorite Color
1- Black
2- White
3- Pink
4- Blue
5- Green
6- Red
7- Orange
8- Yellow
9- Purple
0- Other
--------------------------------------
Last number is your Sign
1- Aries
2- Virgo
3- Sagittarius
4- Cancer
5- Leo
6- Taurus
7- Libra
8- Aquarius
9- Gemini or Capricorn
0- Scorpio or Pisces

So, that's how I got ma 'new number', +65 93893646 . And I happen to think that it's a really
well-put number. Haha. Try it. For those stupidos who think it MIGHT just be ma real number...
go on dial it. Nanti ada BANGLA answer...

Not Going For Any Vacation In Dec?

2007-09-24T16:04:00.000+08:00

Not Going For Any Vacation In December?

Wish u have something fun, not 'indoorsy' activity to do? Wish it's something different from your normal activities? Nothing in mind?

Then RUN YOUR OWN RACE.

Or widen your social network by being volunteers. Many positions for you to role play & get that first-hand experience at :). Rope in your buddies or family... da more da merrier.

For those who guessed correctly, yup, this will be da thing that will keep me busy at work towards December, like I mentioned before.

Click on da logo to take a look at da highlights of the event.

Interested peeps may email me personally at antique.rose@gmail.com or info@singaporemarathon.com (ma colleague will assist u) for further enquiries. But
do take care not to miss out da FAQs on da website cos most of the answers to your
questions are there ;p.

UPDATE: REGISTRATION FOR RUNNERS ARE NEARLY CLOSED WITH LESS THAN 500 SLOTS LEFT SO HURRY! VOLUNTEER REGISTRATION WILL STILL BE UP TILL FURTHER NOTICE. THANK YOU FOR DA SUPPORT!

Just Some Things I Want To Say...

2007-09-15T01:59:00.000+08:00

Just Some Things I Want To Say...

Hurgh. I'm feeling so, FRIED... do not believe da deceiving pictures of maself that I put up on here (hehehehh...). I mean, as we speak I look like totally washed-out. Bad hair days, even though already straightened, bad skin, baaaaad eye-rings, bad mood swings, bad everything... when will I return to normal? The only reason I can come up with seems to be da late nights I've been keeping for da past one month. Now it's taking a toll on me.

No Pictures, no Gossips... no nuthin'. Hope I don't sound so boring by the end of this post.

I've not been talking about work in a very long while... I guess there's nuthin' really much to say except for that I hope the BIG EVENT in Dec turns out well... sure there'll be some glitches but I hope we won't be subjected to a major screamage (is that even in da dictionary?) by our bosses. Had fun photoshooting with ma colleagues last afternoon... u'll see what I'm talking about some time layta ;).

Mum's crazy call tickled me big time just now at dinner.

"Why haven't u called me in such a long while?? Have u became very rich all of a sudden?! Or were u dead & risen up from da dead & that's why u could answer my call only NOW???"

Hm. Sounds THICK.

But that's ma mum for u. I'm quite used to da choice of words she uses :). No offence taken.

She's furious I didn't bring ma kid over for 2 weekends. So... I guess I'm gonna have to drag maself to her place first thing after fetching Cabbage Patch layta. Gosh, da 2room flat is simply cramped. I dunno what to do once I'm there cos ma daughter will be ignoring me like, totally & play with her grandparents & her toys... bucketfuls of toys. Tsk...

And one word for ma beloved Sham. Patience, dear.

I know u're frustrated with everything for da past 2 weeks. I miss u too, but there's nuthin' much that we can do rite now since we're both so busy. Hold on there mmkay... just hold on to me. I will come see u soon.

Aite, I'm trying SUPER HARD not to nod off in front of da screen. I'm out.

To-Do List For Today?

2007-09-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

Come 12am...

Happy Fasting Day to all muslims around da world...! Semoga kamu sabar dan tabah mengalami kelaparan ya... haha ;) Uh, mmkay I know that sounds like crap.

OK... seriously, at last da holy month is here again :).

Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa kepada semua umat Islam... wish u people all da best.

I Will Survive... WILL I Survive?

2007-09-10T05:03:00.000+08:00

I Will Survive... WILL I Survive?

First I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive, I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive....

Words from da song kept weaving in & out of ma head in da car... on da way to a night out with da girls. Ok it is meant to be a motivational song kind of thing but I still wasn't feeling better. And still are. Ugh. For da life of me, I dunno why.

No. Despite what da lyrics may suggest, I'm not going through a break-up *bemused smile*... it's not really PMS either.

Da culprit is somewhere out there.

WILL I survive this emotional rollercoaster?

But I guess I have forgiven him... as much as he could forgive me for ma past mistakes. If he could be magnanimous, why can't I be?

As we speak, I'm also wrestling with Blogger. Everything's effing slow. Changed ma layout again lately cos it just wouldn't open up even in ma IE. I don't like this new layout that much. It is too plain so I added snowflakes. Lame with a big L. Even with this simple layout da page's still lagging. Ma apologies if u experienced that too while visiting ma page. We'll just have to wait it out & see if it improves...

I even contemplated shutting down ma blog cos I was too pissed off. Pray that it won't happen. For now.

Update: Enlarged ma stupid banner. Hope this looks better.

S.P.D Is What I Call It

2007-09-05T14:23:00.000+08:00

S.P.D Is What I Call It (And I'm Not Talking About Power Rangers)

What made me post this only now, I dunno. Maybe a short msn convo with ma old-net-pal just now, Lynette Hayden, made me put this up. Juz take it as a post-lunchtime light-hearted news, haha.

Lynette, an aussie pal of mine catered a speed-dating function about 2 years ago at some jazzy-ish bar here. Don't bother to ask me where... I obviously forget already rite. Being bored at home when Cabbage Patch's at ma mum's, I decided to get ma lazy ass off ma couch & finally watch her at work for da 1st time while helping a bit at da sidelines.

It must have been a really interesting lesson in the etiquette of dating, among other things. In terms of people-watching, it was a fascinating program & a real eye-opener.

Sometimes it was like a really bad telemovie that u juuust had to finish watching even though u're cringing, really cringing. There were about 100 people crammed into da bar. Some were expat aussies here as well... it was for people 36 and under, but there were people there who might have lied a little about their age. She made some different food, mainly cos she wanted to make something different to da norm. Where was she going with da food? U'll see. She had a white bean dip and a white bean and sun dried tomato and white bean dip on melba toasts. People were wary of eating these as the dips had garlic in them. Those that didn't think they were going to picked-up, let alone get a pash that night, had no issues with eating garlic. (Mental note; avoid serving food with garlic in it on future speed dating or dating-related events). Really at the end of da night she didn't care as long as da platters came back empty. But it was interesting nonetheless.

U know your eating habits really say a lot about u.

I remember there were people who followed da platters of food around da bar. Not a good sight.

There was one individual who grabbed a handful of lamb and mint meatballs. A handful mind u, and dipped them in the sauce and proceeded to eat them. Greed is never a good impression, especially on a first date. Ladies, u don't have to eat like a mouse, but grabbing a handful of meatballs is best left in the privacy of your own home if at all - No matter how tasty da meatballs are.

We watched someone talk themselves up. U know successful, worked overseas on Wall Street. Ordered the cheapest drink on the menu. Stop it, lah... haha. Are u for real? U wanna impress a girl, at least keep up the facade of being wealthy until da third date. Showing her how tight u are with money while trying to get a date with her will leave u alone at da bar. I think this about sums up the night - when there are 99 other single people there and u are eyeing off da people who work at da bar counter.... betul2 nya cuci mata. We were happy cos da platters really came back empty.

Hmm... anyone have any tips for the single and dateless? What could they have done to add another fone number to their moby?

By da way... S.P.D is Speed-Dating. Like duhrr... :)

Congratulations Lina!

2007-09-02T16:38:00.000+08:00

Congratulations Lina!

I'd like to congrat an old friend of mine, Lina for passing da first round of interview for da Cabin Crew position for the Emirates Airlines *wide grin*. U're nearly there... another 2 rounds of interview to go. So u bet I'm gonna pray for u :).

Took this picture of her to submit to da interviewers. Looks damn fine doesn't she?

By da way, I've finished making her layout as requested. Banner-wise... it doesn't really look neat but I guess it's rather ABSTRACT. I meant to do it that way cos I haven't seen anyone with that sort of banner on their blogs. I hope u like it, Lina. I might want to log back in & improve on it though. Kalau net kau dah ok & kau tak blog, aku jotos-jotos kau! ;p

Her blog banner.

To start it off, I pinched one of her pics from her Friendster. This particular pic looks unique to me, a pic of her lying on her front in a red & bright blue bikini with a guy drawing a false tattoo on her back. To make her banner less provocative-looking, I had her picture solarized & made other necessary changes to make it look sporty & fun. Layout colours were done according to da colours of her bikini. Personally I think it's hot. So please do drop your feedback or layout tips if u guys have any. Though I'm quite satisfied with da result, this is da 1st layout I made for somebody & I still have a lot to learn, see..? :)

Updated: Sham told me that Lina's layout looks retardedly left-aligned from his screen. Does anyone else have this problem? Her layout looks just fine on ma side. (Browser, IE. I'm not sure about Safari... but it's not Firefox-friendly).

Untitled.

2007-08-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

Untitled (Yada Yada Yada).

I would usually name ma posts. But as for now I'll just put it as Yada Yada Yada. Yup, the Yada Yada Yada post. Jaaadilah daripada takde title langsung. Probably cos I've been feeling so LEMAU of late. Meaning? Slow & stale.

Maybe I just miss Sham & Cabbage Patch too much.

I just wish that it's not just da weekends that I get to see her. I just wish that Sham isn't so busy with his relocating. Yup... from Bedok hIs family moves to Tamp. But after work last Friday, he sent me packed food from home, a bottle of Ribena, cream crackers, Ayam Brand Chilli Tuna & another canned chicken curry when he knew I'd run out of groceries. Really shouldn't have gone to that extent la baybee...

He was here da weekend before last, too... just us having a cosy dinner on a rainy evening at ma living room, cuddling on da sofa, me lying on his chest, doing our dvd-marathonia thing... *sigh*. I can see he's putting more effort to make time for me.. I'm returning back da favour by being reasonable, told him if it's a really mammoth task over there it's ok if he can't meet me. He said he'd rush to unpack da things at his new house so that he could spend time with me, but I don't see da need for him to over-exert. As it is, his job at da warehouse is already energy-draining. He's one hell of a sweet guy... I can have diabetes without even trying.

And cabbage patch, I miss her so much that yesterday I had to ask Yan to call me becos I longed to hear her voice...

PS: I still feel unsatisfied with ma new layout... hmmm. BUT I better come up with da final company logo for Dean before something else occupies me.

Night at Punggol End last week. Sheela, Dean, Hasan & his sis... and me. Beautiful scenery & nice seabreeze, though a tad boring.

Trying Ma Hands On Logos...

2007-08-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

Trying Ma Hands On Logos...

Before I go on writing about this post, I have to say... da fireworks outing (see previous post) went great. Haven't transferred da pics to ma PC though. Ma 5300 broke down finally, and da current moby I'm using is way too cumbersome for things like that. Will come back to that one later on :)...

Anyway, I'm trying ma hands on logo-designing. Still an amateur... but I'm quite enjoying it. A gd friend of mine has just started his own interior design company & they don't have a company logo for their letterhead, yet. So I'm giving him some ideas on that. I'm categorising them under Classic, Futuristic, Formal, and Fun. So u guys guess which is which?

This last design is ma friend's personal favourite. Surprisingly, this was also da last design I made before I got really tired & ran out of ideas & "ilham" (inspiration) for da night :D. But when I review it again, I think da INTERIOR DESIGN wording looks a little kiddy-ish for da font. So... we gonna work on that.

A logo can't just look good on print.What u see, isn't really what u get. Meaning, we have to consider whether da fonts we use are clearly visible on da letterhead, as well as on da namecard, as we all know by now, logos can look very small on namecards. Logos, with careful art & planning, could make a big impression on (especially) a new company...

Cheh deh bah... macam paham je aku ni. But what I said made sense right? Right?

Maybe I will make more logos tonight.

And to Lina (I can't BELIEVE how many Linas there are in ma life), if u see this, I think I have to go come over to make your layout for u... show u around things too. Just wait for ma call.

So I'm Excited About Tomorrow...

2007-08-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

So I'm Excited About Tomorrow...

It's cabbage patch's 4th birthday tomorrow... how time really flies. We're taking her to see da fireworks. Define we? Not me & sham, but me & Yan. Maybe I'm a little nervous about that. Cos we have not spent time together in a long while. And no, I'm not getting back with ma ex-husband. I'm only trying to make little Atikah happy by spending time together with her parents. Me, & her real father. Can u imagine, it would be da best birthday present for her, being able to spend her birthday with us, like a happy & complete family? And I've asked Sham... as I expected, he doesn't mind if it's for ma daughter's sake. Thanks for your understanding hunney.

I guess this may raise a few little controversies. Whatever it could be, ma main purpose is to make cabbage patch happy & I have to be professional about this. Can't let things of da past between Yan & me affect ma happy moments with ma daughter.

Happy 4th Bithday, Nurul Atikah Md Soffian... mummy will always love u & pray for da best for u.

And Yan, thanks for including me in Ikah's birthday plan. U don't know how much this means to me.

2007-08-10T23:33:00.001+08:00

Ma Hearbeat At Play...

2007-08-10T23:30:00.001+08:00

Ma Heartbeat At Play...

I've probably said it many times... but it's so therapheutic to watch ma lil' toddler play. Her carefree-ness would somehow rub off on me. I'd feel relaxed & de-stressed just to hear her laugh & chasing a ball... kinda strange huh?

PS: Slideshow may take some time to load. Or, u can click to 'View All Images'.

And yes, that's da huge playground I mentioned where ma cousin stay. Unfortunately, they're tearing down da mushroom houses :( .

SAVE DA SMURFS FROM BEING HOMELESS!!

Ticking time bomb

2007-08-06T16:54:00.000+08:00

Ticking Time Bomb

Whenever i wonder if it's really worth it, I always psyche maself up saying it's gonna get better. But will it, really?

I know it sounds vague... considering that I don't blog for quite some time.

Ah... never mind.

Only time will tell.

And eventually.... heal. When da worst comes.

I Lost Ma Burn Book...

2007-06-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

So I Lost Ma Burn Book...

Reflecting back to da times when I was a teenager compared to now... loads have changed. In particular, maself. I used to hold grudges a hell lot. Any disservice people do to me, I felt like I would always remember it till da day I die & would blacklist & 'cross' da individual completely... if u'd seen Mean Girls, u should know about da Burn Book & da purpose of it. I had that book kept inside of me.

But now, I can barely make any grudges I felt... last. Even if I'm pissed with someone, memories of da good times we used to have will flood back into ma thoughts, ending up with me trying to find ma own fault as to what went wrong.I don't deny that there are indeed people out there who's always up to no good, or people who always take advantage of da plight of others... but why do I always look for da good in people & not da bad? Am I turning into a moron of some sort, or am I just maturing?

Sham had told me I'm too naive & soft-hearted towards people who don't deserve it. I dunno why... I just can't hate people forever.One thing I still don't get it though. While I'm maturing, why is it still easy to forgive but not to completely forget? Not forget as in, like grudge, but to TOTALLY forget that it ever happened so that it can't hurt me? I don't really care how people feel about me. Whether they like or dislike me. I'm just thankful that Sham's belief in me has been unwavering for da past 1 year or so. Da day he stops doing that I reckon will be da day ma heart stops beating too.

You're probably frustrated, thinking, "Whaad? This girl is beating about da bush (AGAIN)." But I guess I don't need to spell everything out. What I've said in here, is da gist of what happened, and how I feel at the end of it, although I don't exactly pinpoint da problems or persons involved. It's enuff for me just to express it in this way.

:)

Goyang Kepala

2007-06-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

Goyang Kepala

Goyang Kepala Case No 1: I just can't stop shopping for ma 5300 moby handphone casing/strap/pearls! Just what da FISH is wrong with me?!

Goyang Kepala Case No 2: Ma moby rings. An old friend of mine was calling.
"Hello?"
"Heeee! Guess what I found?" she said excitedly.
"Whaad..?" I answered moodily.
"Kau tahu Ratna (what ma old friends know me as) ! Tadi aku nampak ada BAPOK kerja kat Cheers!"
"Asal tak boleh lak? Ok pe..! Makan beras nasi kat rumah kau kape?" I answered with ma usual snide note.

But only to people who are kay-poh enuff to trigger it.

*Pause...*

Then she wanted to hang up on da pretext of having an incoming call.

Please, stop it lah.

I'm not taking that seriously, I can take & make cruel jokes, but I don't discriminate people like bapoks (tranvestites).

Do u know that u can depend on them to understand problems from both girls' & guys' point of view?

Baby It's You...

2007-06-23T19:03:00.000+08:00

Baby It's You...

Just when I thought I'd risen up... I fell again. But it's always becos of u, Sham, that I will always pick maself up again. U've been there a million times, though I've given up on maself a million times. Will there be a day when u'll stop toughing it out with me?

I swear to u I didn't mean whatever I said this morning on da phone. At least ma heart knows it ain't true. But I just thought of what is da best for you... and u said, me.

Though it's not easy to cure me, but with u as ma pillar of strength, I promise I will try ma utmost best to struggle & drag maself out of this mud I'm in. And I promise that no matter what people say about me, I will still be da girl you used to know & won't try to change maself just to please everybody else...

Baybee, I apologise for any hurtful word I may have said to u. Thank u for always lifting me up & loving me da way I am.

It has been a hell of trying moments... but da day we have been waiting for is finally coming closer. Happy 1st Anniversary sweetheart. Hope u like your brand new wallet :)

What A Great Week.

2007-06-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

What A Great Month.

Working with uncoorperative people- taxing. Seeing ma room like a tornado had just run through it & knowing that I don't have da time nor energy to clean it up- stressful. Looking at ma depleting ezlink whenever I tap it to work or anywhere- big SIGH. Knowing that ma kid's no longer here everyday when I need hugs from her- depressing. Knowing that Sham & I are busy and da fact that we can only meet up once a week or even once every 2 weeks- dammit. Last minute plans from friends that keep cropping up- 'priceless'.

And who said living alone is fun? Freedom, yes. But after a while u'll know what it feels like to come home to an empty space day in day out...

I need a new hobby... but what?

*Strums fingers...*

Just Some Things On Ma Mind...

2007-06-02T18:52:00.000+08:00

Just Some Things On Ma Mind...

Sorry if u guys think ma last post went bonkers or something. I'm not sure if becos of Blogger, or it's becos of da bubblewrap thing I put here 2 posts ago. Something's wrong with da last post I wrote. It shows up on da preview... but actually appears blank when I go to the actual website :(. If it's Blogger, they'd better buck up! Just to be on da safe side though, I replaced da bubblewrap with just a link... who knows it might have slowed down ma site somehow...

Anyway, I'm glad that Sham is back from Malaysia. I still can't forget this cute sms he sent.

"Awak tgh uat apa? Me ngah see org main kompang.Btw saya kat sini jadi penderma yang baik hati pada nyamuk. Banyak seh time maghrib. Next time kita gi k?So kita leh jadi blood donors. Miss u. Don't sleep too late k sayang. Takut esok awak penat..."

Strangely, da next day I dreamt he lost his moby. So I called him, 3 times, but apparently his mobile was off. So I was thinking what now...?

Luckily I managed to reach him when he was on his way back to SG. He bought me 2 doughnuts & chocolate swiss roll for his kuzz to bring back for me... somewhat packed in a Dunkin' Donuts sort of box... what is it? Oh yea... Golden Oven. And it's yummy. Thanks for da thought, love.

His aunts packed me goodies from da wedding that they attended there too. Thank u guys. Sorry I didn't get to attend da wedding.

There's something else. This is dedicated to an old classmate of mine.

F, I wonder how u're doing down there... do take good care of urself aite? I know it's not your fault that u have to go to jail. But like what I've always told u da last time we met up, what goes around... comes back around. I dunno how she could sleep at night knowing that u're ending up like this becos of her & her dad. But they will get their retribution one day... never ever stop believing in urself & God. Choose your friends (or girlfriends) wisely when u get your freedom back mmkay. I've spoken to your mum... your family believes in u. I hope u will get to read this someday. And I certainly hope that u'll reply to ma letter soon. Would love to hear how u're doing. Take care ma dear friend...

Time Waster Of Da Month!

2007-05-27T02:54:00.000+08:00

Time Waster Of Da Month!

I love doing this ever since I was probably about... three? Nyahaha.

VIRTUAL BUBBLEWRAP

THE BUBBLEWRAP! Now in virtual form... know those plastic bubblewraps that are used to cushion fragile goods in boxes? Whether u're just bored at work, or nervous about something, indulge in THE ULTIMATE TIME WASTER! Pop them using ur cursor now! But if u're at work, mind da boss :).

Interesting Fact: How on earth do they get air in da bubblewrap?

Bubble Wrap manufacturing starts as polyethylene resin, in da form of beads about the size of pea gravel. Da beads go into an extruder - a long cylinder with a screw inside that runs its entire length. As the screw is turned, heat builds up and da resin melts into a liquid that is squeezed out of the cylinder into two stacked sheets of clear plastic film. One layer of the film is wrapped around a drum with holes punched in it, and suction is applied drawing one web of film into the holes that form the bubbles. The second layer of film is then laminated over the first so that when the two films are joined, they stick together and trap the air in the bubbles ;)

Will probably be a lil' busy to blog next week. So enjoy da bubbles while u all can.

So Is It Me, Or You?

2007-05-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

So Is It Me, Or You?

There are all kinds of blog readers.

First, da regular readers. But they do not/rarely comment. Hmm... that's ok.

Second, regular readers but regular commentators too. But not neccessarily vocal. Good.

Third, da 'biscuit' ones. Seen the old advertisement, Now u see 'em, now u don't? But when they do drop by they'll give u sweet friendly comments. I think that's fine too.

Forth, the regular & sometimes occasional readers that ANONYMOUSLY (or should I put it, cowardly) comment or email u when they spot any entries that they feel not in their favour. And almost too vocal. They make u think that u should always write about what da public wants to hear, rather than what NEED to be heard.

Well da Category Four bug landed in ma email today.

To a certain K girl; How in da world made u have da darndest conclusion that I'm setting this blog in da 1st place to get attention? Attention??

It's not even LISTED in the in any freaking website as one of da top blogs! I do not beg people to read it. People will come & go & that is fine with me.

I do not intend for ma blog to be high-profiled. Sometimes due to work I don't blog for long periods. I write for me. I write for ma friends who want the updates to ma life. I write about ma pent-up emotions, though I don't really go into in-depth details. I write about some of ma share-worthy experience. Sometimes I write about what da public should know. Constructively, bukan suka-hati mak bapak aku. Why should I write about what brain-dead people like u want to hear? U mean bloggers can't have honest opinions? Or do u not recognise humour? I do not even slander people & mention names or worse still, splash their pictures in ma blog & smear ma own name. Ma blog style has changed, there's a lot of difference between ma old Xanga blog & this one. And most importantly, I don't care what u think as long as I do not break major blog rules geddit?

I'm gonna make this a short one; I look very harmless, AND I swear like a sailor in real life. But in this reply to this girl tonight, I choose not to. Let her think for herself, is it me, or is it her who's screaming for attention. Oh, by da way, emailing me will not be enuff. I'm not being conceited when I say, try commenting in ma cbox & see what da peeps have to say about your two-cent's worth. Don't be such a cow (ard).

Yeah... yeah. I'm still lyin' here doin' what I do ;)

Ma Moby's Not Boring Anymore...

2007-05-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

Ma Moby's Not Boring Anymore...

I now have a lil' addiction to... mobile games *gulp*. Ma 5300 used to be for mp3 listening only, but now it has turned into the ultimate gaming machine too. I used to be amazed at how obsessed Sham is with games, ANY games for all that matter. Moby games... his games on PS2... even Miniclips.com. Even though I'm not as obsessed yet, I can see why now. Time passes very quickly when I try to solve clues in Desperate Housewives. Or, I could take it out on ma little virtual opponent in Pool whenever I'm frustrated. Oh, please don't even bother asking me how many games I had downloaded & try to mentally calculate how many kilobytes I used. I don't have regrets about downloading them but at da moment I don't want to know just how much everything cost! *Covers face*.

Games that I downloaded:

Asphalt 3. Hmm. Kind of 3D-ish. Fun, cos I get to play daredevil and race and also bump off da police a lot ;)

Desperate Housewives. U must be thinking how they develop such a game rite?

M-I:3. That's self-explanatory...

Midnite Pool. Duh.

Midnite Casino. Also duh. But all casino games in 1. Gd value.

Miami Nights: Singles In The City. Where u girls get to play pretend u're an upcoming star. Thought it wud be a great game but it turned out to be BORING.

Sudoku. Greatest mind stimulator. Da champion.

...and another one more, an arcade sort of game.

But, DO NOT download if u can't afford it. Tariff & individual charges for each games apply... I think around 6 bucks? Yea... that is why I have stopped for now :)

And for those of u who guessed, yes, da phone is with Sham rite now, lol. Neway I happened to download most of da games for him.

Click on da pic to browse through da webby.

Can Someone Buy Me Chocolate Ice-Cream & Personally Send It To Me, Pleease..?

2007-05-20T13:55:00.000+08:00

Can Someone Buy Me Chocolate Ice-Cream & Personally Send It To Me, Pleease..?

I promise to be a good girl. Really. I won't get hysterical & take it out on u. People have monday blues. But now I'm having a Sunday blue :(

But nah, I'm not having any relationship problems. He has been uber sweet. Hmm... maybe it's due to da fact that ma daughter is going back this afternoon & I won't get to see her again for another week or so? Da time spent with her always seem so short :(. It's never enuff.

On the other hand, I'm also just sick & tired of jobs that get me nowhere. Sometimes... it feels like I'm doing work for other ppl more than for maself.

Ma mood just doesn't reflect da cheery Sunday afternoon.

Shucks.... I really feel like like a piece of sh*t. Demoralised is me. Lost, is me too. And this ain't PMS talking. I hope this is just one of those days & that it'll be over before I know it.

I'm waiting for da scorching weather to subside before I bring ma kid down to da playground. Ma kuzz is one lucky girl. Her future children will have a huge playground to play in. Well actually, I've lost count of how many they have here... not counting da mushroom houses which reminds me of Smurfs :).

Boring post, but yea *shrugs*... I'm not feeling too chirpy rite now.

All I can look forward to rite now is our outback-style 1 year anniversary celebration next month. 25th June 07... here I come.

Muse Of The Day

2007-05-13T15:54:00.000+08:00

Muse Of The Day

I can't help but feel a bit tickled...

I mean like where can u find such cig ads in Singapore anymore? Squint your eyes out if u wanna read what it says below on that poster ad. Speaking of which, it has been 3 days since I touched a freaking cigarette. Actually it's becos I had to, hehe. I wasn't feeling well. And rite now there is no doubt I'm getting pretty restless. Well ask the old faggot in da poster if u need more verification. Should I try to quit altogether... cold turk? Or should I slow maself down first then eventually quit?

Hmm... that pack of viceroy menthol his aunt bought for me looks tempting. And u know why she bought it for me? Because here where I live they sell it cheap (Viceroy $9.20/9.40, L&M $9.60, Marlboro & Sampoerna 10 dollars ++). But the cons are are more than the pros, I guess. Youngsters will be more encouraged to smoke following da low prices some shops are offering. Don't count on 7-11 though. It's still pricey there.

Cheap? Well smokers, u wanna know where I'm staying? Eat your hearts out, I'm trying to quit anyway :)

PS: I like Glenn Ong's idea on Class 95FM that NEA should punish offenders caught smoking at bus stops by slapping an on-the-spot fine of minimum 500 bucks, OR.... hold on to a giant, bolster-like ciggy & walk around the area for a couple of hours. Isn't that cute??

By da way, a friend of mine has been caught doing it. Not da bolster thing, lah. He kena saman. Like 'kana sai' rite? I may be a smoker, but I'm just trying to be fair. Da key to it has always been consideration, consideration, & consideration. If there's many ppl around, no matter where u are, don't smoke, it's as simple as that. And abide by da rules. Do not smoke in non-designated areas. BUT, non-smokers have to take note too. Don't give us smokers da murderous look & expect not to inhale second-hand smoke when u are in an outdoor restaurant with a designated smoking corner. Just because I smoke & u don't, doesn't make u da better person ;).

Happy Mothers' Day!

2007-05-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

Da Much Awaited Day For Ma Tribute...

A mum is God's love in action,
She looks with her heart & feels with her eyes.
A mum is the bank,
where her children deposits their worries & hurt.
A mum is the cement,
that keeps her family together.
And her love... lasts a lifetime.

Send this to a good mum today. I just did.

*Sniff*

It has been about 4 years since I gave birth to ma only daughter. Da journey to motherhood has not always been smooth, but I'm enjoying every single waking minute of it. I know I didn't spend 15 hours in da delivery suite in vain when I see her smiling up at me whenever she tells me what she has learnt in school. Singing me da songs she sang with her playmates. Wishing me gd night before planting a huge, wet salivary kiss on ma cheek. Hugging me tight whenever there are thunderstorms. Making me silently cry whenever she's ill or in pain. Making me scream whenever she's up to her mischiefs & yet makes me smile again when she apologetically says sorry...

I'm responsible for this little wonder. This little human being that I created, that grew inside of me.

Ma miracle...

And I'm sure your mums feel da same way about u too.

Happy Mothers' Day to all mums in da world... :)

To All Da Troubled Souls...

2007-05-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

To All Da Troubled Souls...

Don't cha...

... wish that people would be 99% objective, 1% judgementative?

... wish that people would try to emphatise, not symphatise, just as easily as u could put urself in their shoes anytime of the day?

... wish that the jury would not chant "death sentence" even before you could defend urself?

... wish that it's not so hard to have an uncomplicated life? Unless u're mentally ill, isn't it by default no one's really complicated? It is when our simple needs in life are not being met & life becomes somewhat meaningless, even simple, easily-contented people would turn complicated.

... wish to have a quiet, peaceful life free of bothered thoughts & a life surrounded by two-headed snakes? ( No offence to a certain colleague. Maybe I should consider marrying a farmer & milk cows everyday than to work with YOU )

Uh, ok. That probably went a lil' too far. I could choose to live by da sea & hear da sound of waves everyday, not da sound of bucketfuls of cows' milk, rite? Ok back to da point.

... wish that people would live & let live & let bygones be bygones? Or get on with their own lives without being resentful of what others have that they don't. They all seem to be on their own amazing race. Busy finding clues to da downside of people's lives, constantly wanting to be ahead of the other in more ways than one. *Coughs*...America should seriously consider producing The Amazing Retards.

Maybe these are all our own ideas of World Peace. Well... even if da chances of it happening is next to none, at least I know some of us still have the halo intact on our heads. It's important to stay grounded & to know where we stand. We must be strong, not be explicitly trusting to people we don't know well... and most importantly stay true to ourselves.

Cheers to those who are working hard to perservere in this race. And a big hug.

Thoughts of the day: I really think ma bf should be in that spidey outfit. Lol.

What A Hiatus.

2007-04-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

What A Hiatus.

People must be thinking... wtf, Anna's blog is DEAD. Real dead. But not the owner, definitely. I thought u knew :0 ?? Have been taking a looong hiatus from da net (except for the occasional checks on ma Friendster & emails, company email too) & surprisingly, work. Well work-wise, not that long.

Life for me, has been rather sedate, but not neccessarily boring. I have been spending ma time reconnecting with long lost friends & ma kuzzins whom I haven't met up with in AGEss. After a long break from da clubbing scene, ma peeps finally managed to drag me to Momo on ma early 24th birthday party (if u'r wondering how LONG was long, it was 7 mths). Yea, 7 mths, no shit. When I was quite da party animal just over 2 years ago. And it was a delight to find out that a kuzzin I grew up with who got married, happened to get a house near to ma crib, I feel like if I throw a stone it cud fall rite in front of her doorstep (a stone's throw lah katakan...).

It was great, really wonderful. I'm glad to have met up with ma old peeps but somehow or another, I don't quite share da love for clubbing no more, thus, if u notice, no clubbing pics like I used to take huh? Furthermore I cudn't be bothered... ma 5300 XpressMusic moby has no flash that I can use in dark places. Lol. As for trying to get maself back to ma family & relatives, well... it isn't as smooth sailing like I thought it would be, but still... I think I'm doing alright, not like the hermit I quite used to be.

I dunno if I should even write this. I think even ma ex is trying to be friends with me again. Of late, we have been talking on da phone quite a bit, reflecting on what we did wrong in our marriage, try to think of ways to improve ma daughter's life without us together. (And I had been wondering if we wud ever be friends again after all da 'catfights' we still had up to da day we actually talked civilisedly) . I hope da communication will last, though we're not thinking of getting back together again.

I have updated everyone in Friendster Bulletin about ma life update, I hope u guys won't think that I'll be closing down ma blog soon, haha... though I very seldom update now, I still make it a point to speak to y'all whenever I can. Through here.

And yes, after 9 months, Sham & I ARE still pretty much madly in love now :)

And a still lil' bit spastic at that. :S

Ma lil' cabbage patch & Sham on ma birthday, at ma crib. Ma life is for them.

And also thanks to Shaz, Im, Md Nor, Shidah, Fazz & da three new peeps for making ma birthday a smashin' one.

For da rest of ma new pics, go to ma friendster. Heh.

HOLA...

2007-02-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

Be dazzled By Da Be-Pimpled

So life can't get any boring-er than this. I have no time for friends, recreation, or even blogging :s. Weird, I know, considering that da friends I know somewhat see me as a social butterfly. But to admit, that is so yesterday. As usual, I'm (still) working ma ass off in the office. And it's already 8.01pm *yawn*... ma work is ongoing and it'll never be finished. Who said being in Accounts Dept is cool..? Hmph. But it isn't that bad. They pay me good.

Hmm. Ma mind is in a blank cos I am still trying to remember something regarding ma work. Don't mind da nerd in me :)

Ma FAMILY PICS... I only have Sham & ma little Cabbage Patch's pics on ma desk.

Da reports I'm still rushing out. It's near month-end... yikes.

Dunno why I look so dark. Da office is well-lit. And that pimple. Lol.

Nampak sah aku stress.

Hope u peeps are doing well. Will be rite back!

So Hari Raya Came & Went...

2006-11-11T14:19:00.000+08:00

So Hari Raya Came & Went...

Well... not really. It ends on da 24th of this month, but to me... there's no Hari Raya-ing anymore rite now. Didn't go visiting that much this year cos of work commitments.... how boring. And today is ma day off, finally... I'm back online for a bit to catch up with everyone & their blogs... lol. And don't laugh at da pathetic number of pics I have. Like I told u, I didn't visit that much peeps this Raya.

Ma siblings, ma kuzzs & me.

Org-org giler pose lagi.

GANYUT asking for 'collection'.

In da taxi... Don't we look tired?

Nice pic of hunney and his sister isn't it?

Hmm... told ya, not much I have there. Ma digicam wasn't working well on that day. So I had to rely on the others'.

And tomorrow I'm back at work. Chet It doesn't feel like an off day today :(

Hmm...

2006-10-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

Hmm...

It's been a long while since I last created a new layout. So here u are. It's much more neater-looking this time with tables on da left side with all ma knick-knacks innit. Sorry though, hunney, (and da rest of u who just go to ma site to play games, bluek ;)! ) Ur Games Room is gone :(. But I'm still trying to figure out how to resize it & once I compile all da games & other interesting stuff, I will create one column just for u to have fun with whenever u visit ma blog mmkay..?

Sham wants to set up a blog & wants me to design a blog layout for him too. He wants something retro-ish, but that theme is something that I have not learnt to design so far... so sorry again, hunney. I still need more time to look in Yahoo Images, Google images, Deviantart or even Gettyimages for ideas aite?

I wanna say thanks to da peeps who emailed me & trying to make me feel better about ma daughter :). U don't know how surprised I was by all da response to ma last post. Also to da anonymous person who posted in ma chatbox & OF COURSE, Sham who've always been there all along, even though I'm cranky & untoleratable at times. Thanks dears... I'm so touched. U peeps did make ma day better & easier to cope with.

*Takes a deep breath*

From Da Bottom Of A Mother's Heart.

2006-10-06T10:27:00.000+08:00

From Da Bottom Of A Mother's Heart.

Little sweetheart, mummy know u miss me.
Mummy miss u too.
Mummy is in pain, but mummy don't know what else to do.
Whenever I send u home,
it breaks ma heart to see u cry.
Time spent together too short, I felt I could die.

Mummy wish to watch u grow up & take care of u.
And to be da one who'll always be there
each time u graze ur knee in a fall...
but mummy has a hard life.
Please forgive mummy.
Do not follow in mummy's footsteps.
U deserve so much more.

I thought I could give u a good life.
But I was quite wrong.
Mummy knows that u want to be with mummy,
but when u grow up, mummy hope u would understand & see da light...
and to know that mummy's love for u is unconditional
till da day mummy dies...

Mummy know u're a good girl.
Always listen to daddy.
Even though u may not know,
Mummy is always somewhere out there
watching over u...

I would give anything & everything
to be with u again.

And everyday, I love u.

Your sad mummy,
Anna

Cherish Ramadhan.

2006-10-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

Cherish Ramadhan.

Twice, I walked around at Geylang Serai but could not find da kebaya I like. Seems strange, but year in and year out, they all looked da same. Same old colours, same old design that I've seen even years before...

Almost a year has passed, and how life has changed for me. I lost some, I gained some. Dunno what I mean? True, relationship-wise I am happy... but readers who always read this blog knows what I have lost. Or rather, who. Exactly a year ago... I had ma own family. But now it's a whole lot of different story. Ah well, no use talking about da sad past isn't it? I'm really just lamenting about how fast time flies, actually :).

Despite Geylang Serai getting a new look for da stalls there, I still love da good food during Ramadhan. And how I look forward for a nice break-fast meal after a whole day patiently & faithfully fasting. And at night when I sleep... everything seems much more peaceful & quiet. Like totally different from ma normal nights. Don't u notice it urself too?

Cherish Ramadhan & it's holy-ness while u can. It only visits us once a year... ;).

PS: To ma 'usual suspects', Im, Remmy, Alif, Aziz & Shafa... really can't wait for our Seoul Garden pig-out on da 15th! Yayyy...!

Yum Yum...

2006-09-28T13:27:00.000+08:00

Yum Yum...

We had these for our break-fast this evening.

Sham, his mak & me.

And close-up pics of da food.

Look at da sambal fried fish & crispy prawns! (Too bad, I'm allergic to it... sob)

The Chicken Supreme Sham and sweet & spicy drums that Sham brought back from work!

Thanks to Sham's mak for inviting me over.

And the aftermath? Two extremely KENYANG (bloated) people.

Weird combination of food we have there isn't it? Lol. How about posting pics of your most recent break-fast? Share lah... so I could drool all over ma keyboard. Or puke at da screen if they're yucky looking :).

Look. No, don't. Hides face

2006-09-23T13:54:00.000+08:00

Look! No, don't. *Hides face* MALULAH SAYA...

Ma new boss... gave me all these *horrified look*.

NOT including da handphone lah... that is mine.

Aaaarrrgggh. I very paiseh leh at 1st. Kept grinning when he knew that I'm a smoker & gave me da leaflet at the end of da day... & then two days later, he gave me that dreaded teeth whitening paste that he have never used before. Claimed that he didn't have da patience to use it twice per day, so he passed it to me. Yeah yeah.... like I have da patience ;p.

Nah, I'm just messing. I'm excited to try it. Anything that is free... of cos la nice to try, rite??

"Thanks very much Mr FT :).

Much love,
Anna Mohammad
Your Cute Secretary"

Lol. But seriously, he's a very nice old boss. Cares a lot about his staffs.

I'm making use of this fasting month to quit. Brought da cigarrette flavour I hate da most... Viceroy RED. And I'm sharing it with Shafa. We're trying to quit together. One day, only 2 sticks allowed and no cheating! Khekehekhe.... one stick for daytime while at work... another one at nite before going to bed. Lepaskan gian je...

Thought of not meeting up with Sham after work... cos we have met almost everyday & I thought he would like to have a rest once in a while.

But he sms-ed me asking me where I'd be going after work, so I innocently replied I'll be headin' straight home. He said "Oh... I see..". So I asked him why, and he asked if I wanted him to pick me up at ma workplace.

Silly guy. As if he's wooing me for da first time... He should have just said that he wanted to see me today. Why beat about da bush *grin*?

So everything went well in the office today, alhamdulillah... went even better when I knew that he's gonna pick me up for da first time in ma new workplace :).

And finally, da day I've been waiting for. SATURDAY. Da day I take ma Cabbage Patch kid home. Looking forward to a nice 'family outing'... all three of us. Till then, have a good day peeps ;)...

And hunney, please stop peeking over ma shoulder to see what I'm typing. Nice try, but try again. Bluek.

The Takde Makna Post

2006-09-16T15:30:00.000+08:00

The Takde Makna Post

It's been a long time since I bought nice new clothes for maself. Hmm... dunno how long.

Am I kidding maself? I mean, I'm even telling u these trivial things!

Maybe I'm turning boring. Boring as in, BOOOOOOOO-RING.

I hope Miss Moody gets better. Soon. Puh-lease. But at least, an update is better than no update. At least I'm telling u what I'm thinking rite now.

Hmm... da Siti & Datuk K thing is wayy too overated. They're also humans like us, rite? I received loads of emails on their pics. But interesting though.

I like these pics on Sham's comp. Sweet. Macam style org2 lama posing gitu kat park....

A Day Less Ordinary...

2006-09-12T08:59:00.000+08:00

A Day Less Ordinary...

As I'm writing this, I'm thinking, is ma blog turning serious or what??

I hope not. Hopefully it's just a phase that'll pass soon. Cos I don't intend for this blog to be too serious or to be an avenue to reveal ma deepest secrets. It's meant to be a public blog after all.

I woke up this morning... feeling peaceful but still, something was amiss. This feeling has been around for some time. I looked at ma watch, it showed 11.30pm. So late? Oh yeah... I helped out at a kenduri (a religious prayer session followed by a feast) da night before at Sham's place. Ok, so what actually seemed missing?

I used to wake up to da sound of little patters of footsteps & kiddy chatters around me. An occasional peck on da cheek or da forehead too... followed by giggles of delight when I opened ma eyes... but now, that's all only just a memory... :( . I have also moved out. This time, for good.

For those who've guessed, u're right. I no longer live with ma cabbage patch now. I only see her on weekends. Life is undergoing a lot of changes rite now. Ma divorce was finalised recently, and custody was awarded to her dad. Actually I was da one who gave him da custody...

To friends who have strongly voiced their disapproval at ma decision, I have nothing more to say. U dunno what's ma situation rite now. I have irregular working hours & it's near impossible for me to take care of her for now... & ma mum has rheumatism, she can't chase after an active kid all da time too. While Yan's ( ma ex) parents are working during da day & they have a car... they could fetch her from school & there will always be someone to watch over her in the evenings. Of course, besides these technical reasons there are delicate ones too. Whatever it is, I only want da best for ma daughter & I want her to have a proper place to live in, & not follow me around moving from house to house. It's just... not ma idea of stability for a 3 year old kid.

Of course, I know different pple will have different opinion on this matter. But please do not criticise, cos if u're in ma helpless shoes I bet u will do da same too.

I miss her everyday. I really do. But I believe every bad things that happened, there's always a reason behind it. Who knows, she may even be raised better by Yan's parents than by us...

I have only one thing to look forward to, and that is ma future. At least, I managed to leave a violent marriage & have a chance to start life afresh. And I pray that it's gets better for both me and ma daughter...

And to everyone, before u de-link me I promise u that this blog won't turn too serious mmkay? Lol! (But hey, it's a REAL blog with REAL situations, so if I were to be de-linked just becos of that, I feel that won't be ma loss, but yours).

PS: Sorry if I don't reply in chatbox. I'm blogging this one in da library, chatbox is filtered *shrugs*.

Struggling For Better Life & Future

2006-08-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

Struggling For Better Life... & Future

Just to make up for the long MIA-ness, I decided to update u peeps just a lil' bit though it's kinda hard for me to be online nowadays ;)

I had been thinking. For some reason, maybe good things have begun to shed some light behind da bad incidences I've been though. Just earlier last week, I was depressed, probably cos of da stress from da 2 jobs I'm holding rite now & da fact that I still ain't got a suitable place for me to rent. Thank God I managed to keep it in check & didn't even lash out ONCE to Sham no matter how frustrated & pent-up I felt. I thank him for always being patient with me & being there whenever I really need him. I'm starting to feel slightly better now. Chris is helping me find a place. We're gonna share da rent. Chris, his colleague & me... we'll all have a room each. I hope we find da perfect place for us soon.

I felt happy after watching Kak Ina's wedding videos at Sham's place just now. That's his favourite cousin. I dunno why, but I feel it's very heartwarming to see them all happy & smiling, poking fun at one another. I pray his family stays this happy now & always. I really love him a lot & I always want da best for him. Oh forgot to tell u, his comp has been badly hit by virus. That's why u don't see him posting mushies on ma chatbox for now *grin*..

Sorry cos I don't have any nice pics to show u peeps rite now. And sorry if I sound a lil' mellow & no antics for the day, lol. Will be back for more action ;)

I've Been Tagged Gasp!

2006-08-08T13:23:00.000+08:00

I've Been Tagged *Gasp!*

So I've been tagged by Zyzy... haaha. I can do da questionaire...but do not expect me to tag someone else, cos I can't be bothered to *grin*. Tag urself. Urm, I mean, go do da questions urself if u wanna ;). Not that I have that much time on da net to see everyone's answers anyway... so sorry...

Favourites
Favourite Colour: Blue... peachy pink
Favourite Food: Ayam lemak chilli padi... *slurrp*
Favourite Song: Many many lah.... uncountable
Favourite Movie: Also many many la... go see ma friendster la (hehehe)
Favourite Sport: Used to be badminton... now not active anymore.
Favourite Day of the Week: When I'm chillin' with ma Hunney Bear :)
Favourite Ice Cream: Peppermint choc chips, chocolate or anything with Oreos in it.
TV Shows: Lately I'm into Indonesian shows... dunno why huh?
Current Mood: Happy
Current Taste: Anything goes... not too obiang can already la
Current Clothes: Rite now? Still in ma khaki blazer, red spaghetti top & jeans.
Current Desktop: Still da ridiculously bulky monitor but, but black colour lah...
Current Toenail Colour: I painted 'em nude peach. Nice?
Current Time: 9.02pm
Current Annoyance: Overworked, but fucking underpaid!
Current Thoughts: Money money fly away.... haiz.
Best Friend: Still ma Hunney Bear :). He's everything rolled into one.
First Crush: Urm... ma playground buddy & family friend when I was in kindergarten, can't remember his name though.
First Movie: How da heck am I supposed to remember that o_0
First Lie: *Rolls eye* READ above, can?
First Music: Ma parents used to listen to slow rock a hell lot, so... yeah.

Last
Last Cigarette: Hmm... just now?
Last Drink: Mirinda Orange at ma workplace
Last Car Ride: Do taxis count?
Last Crush: Sham, ma hunney. *Grin*
Last Phone Call: Sham, and ma lil' sis.
Last CD played: I don't play cds...sorry. Last song heard on ma MP3 is da Tokyo Drift's OST.

Have U Ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: *Shakes head*
Have you ever broken the law: *Places a halo on ma head* ;p
Have you ever been arrested: So what?
Have you ever skinny dipped: Not yet. So who's with gonna try with me? (That, I'm kidding, wokey. So NO WAY)
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: Few years back when I was drunk at a New Year's party. Bleah!

So for those who wanna do these fun questions... go rite ahead :). Gotta have dinner, I'm so starved. And Yanni... mana aku ada senyap..? Hehe.

Friends... How Far Would U Go For Them?

2006-08-03T14:15:00.000+08:00

Friends... How Far Would U Go For Them?

I have a friend, let's call her N, who is close to a girl named S. S would frequently sleep over at N's place. In fact, they're pretty much like a family. S leads a kinda lonely life. Her mum died when she was young & her dad is always overseas. So S lives with her sis.

Pityful, u may say? Yes. But... S has a major problem.

S wants everything to go her own way :S.

They would fight & argue over da smallest things (even a missing bra, lol). And S doesn't seem to like da fact that N is very popular & that she has a lot more friends than she does. True, S is prettier. But she is lonely, in family life & even friends... lack of them, that is. S doesn't like it when N wants to go out with her own circle of friends. She would accuse N of neglecting her (altho N went all da way for her in everything) & placing her importance of her friends', rather than herself. N told me this problem herself. She's stressed that she can't make S any happier even though she has done her best :(.

So I asked her, what made her stuck with S although she's a stick in da mud?? N told me it's becos she felt S is lonely & she pities her. Unlike S, N has a complete & a happy family...

This is what we call, psychological warfare. When pple know that they're still wanted after getting away with murder, they will push their luck even further. Like S, for example. Most of da times it's her fault in their fights. But she wouldn't apologise. In fact N will go out of da way to please her. Da last time they fought, N even sent her food to her workplace & even bought her some white gold jewellery as a gift. And that wasn't da first time she tried pleasing S after their fights, no matter who's in da wrong. But S sarcastically called N back, saying she didn't need those things & that there was no need for N to please her. I'm appalled by this strange & selfish behaviour. Shouldn't we all be grateful if we have such godsent friends?

When must one draw da line when dealing with such friends?

Friends should be there for one another. Friends should encourage, not criticise (although good criticisation is sometimes good when u wanna make them realise a grave mistake). Friends should appreciate one another, not treat one another for granted. But this is what S is doing now. And it's driving all her friends away. But only N sticks it through with her, & she still treats her like trash. How can this be problem be rectified?

Stop treating ur friend as if they're really wanted cos they will never learn if u continue to treat her like a king/queen. U're not helping at all. Everytime u had an arguement, they will always have the impression that they are right & u are always in da wrong if u continue to try to please them when they don't even deserve all that pampering.If u have such friends rite now, I'm sorry to say this, but u should stop being da bootlicker. Lie low for a few days, let them think of da wrong that they did AND let them call u, not the other way round. Apologise constructively; always know what u're apologising for. There's no use apologising for something which is not even ur fault all da time. If all these fails & they still don't realise what a good friend u have been, then it's too bad... this friendship may have reached wayy past it's expiry date.

Oh, by da way, I had a bestfriend of 8 years who kind of treated me da same way. Wrote about her in ma Xanga blog before.

Not braggin'... but I dumped her.

I'm a simple person. End of story *shrugs*

Gotta give ma hunney bear a massage now after a long day at work. Won't want him to feel neglected :) .

Making A Switch... Yet Again?

2006-07-31T11:00:00.000+08:00

Making A Switch... Yet Again?

Hey peeps. Miss ya lots. As usual I'm gonna ask, how are u guys??

I'm thinking of making a switch from PH to PastaMania soon. Well, before u raise a brow at that statement, let me say, MAYBE.

For one thing, there're many cons than pros if I make this switch. Some of da food there is non-halal, though they pay better than PH. Haiz... how? AND. Currently there're no girls working there. All guys... so I'll definitely miss ma friends in PH. Da management in PH has also changed... two of our best managers have left for Tanjong Katong Branch. Many pple have left after they find da new management sort of sucked, there's almost no laughter left (of course, except for da ones by da remaining of da gila ones like us...heh). But I also know all of us have to somehow move on to new environments & learn... to evolve. Life has to go on. We have to give da new people in da mgmt team our support too if we wanna work well with them.

Some of da gila ones still in PH Toa Payoh *grin*....

Da Young And NOT Dangerous, heh...

Mar (ma lil' sis) & her bf....

Da couple who's still going on strong :)

Zura, Andre & Mar...

ME. Again. Lol.

Bah! I should have known better. I only have these pics to show u for now. Due to limited time I will be back once I have more... *wink*

It Still Exists No Matter How U Turn A Blind Eye.

2006-07-18T05:20:00.000+08:00

It Still Exists No Matter How U Turn A Blind Eye.

Aye peeps... miss updating here. Hope ur life ain't as boring as mine rite now, haha. But of course, it's getting wayy better *wink wink*.

I'm reading this backdated news about a somewhat middle-aged man who's just recovered from cancer & has been going for interviews & rejected 20 times already... I find it sad. He's certified medically fit by doctors to find a job, but why do companies turn him down..?

Hmm....

No matter what da government say about people having equal opportunities & all da hype, I can't deny, that discrimination still exists.

Be it racial discrimination, or people who discriminate ex-convicts or people with previous illnesses. Why do people turn a blind eye to it? As far as finding jobs re concerned, I won't elaborate more on what I meant by that (I don't wanna be sued mmkay? LOL) but most people should know what I'm talking about. Everyone deserves a chance. Everyone needs to put at least 3 square meals on their tables everyday. But all these is sometimes made difficult by just one word alone. Yes, again, DISCRIMINATION. How long can people live on financial aid? And if they DO try to apply for aid, why is it that da Means Test have to be so hard? Means Test is an assessment of whether they can qualify for da financial aid by asking people to declare their monthly salary... backed with payslips, of course. And also to reveal what sort of house they live in & all that. Sounds simple enuff, but actually its not :(. I have a divorcee friend who lives in a small house & needs help with her child's monthly expenses. But it takes ages for her application to be approved.

Bah. I think I have ranted enuff. Will get all flustered & angry if I go on & on. Haiz...

To those who are still looking for jobs... I wish them well & successful.

Oh yeah, to those who had asked, I'm doing fine, thank u :).

Da 2 most important people to me in da world...Cabbage Patch & HunneyBear.

Da new family. Hmm.... Lol. Don't I look listless?

A struggling Ikah & poor Sham trying to get her to pose, haha.

Us, finally. And it's also ma handphone wallpaper rite now *grin*.

PS: Love u both to bits.

Twisted Nonsense

2006-07-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

Twisted Nonsense

I fell asleep on da living room sofa after I came back from work. It was about 7.30pm.

I kept hearing ma mobile fone ringing... it was ma Strawberry Shortcake mp3 ringtone. But somehow I thought I was only dreaming about it ringing.

...and it kept ringing & ringing...

I finally jolted out of ma slumber. It was sooo dark. I wondered what time it was. Turned out that it was Sham on the other end of da line & he was frantically trying to reach ma handphone. I grinned to maself. I had just set da ringtone specifically for him when he calls, how could I forget??

Turned out that cabbage patch re-dialled his number when I was sleeping & was mumbling baby talk & saying hello... LOL. Yeah, that's what he told me. Oh wait, I'm trying to picture how it sounded like. Haha... kiut kan.

I finally looked at da time. It showed 11pm. Gosh. How long has Ikah been left alone & hungry??

And Sham thought I had fainted out of exhaustion in ma house (cos he knew I was stayed up late da nite before & went straight to work in da morning).

OK OK. So I overslept and neglected cabbage patch. Sorry.

(But when u have to wake me up next time, make sure that all da hype is worth it aite...)

There, I'm messin' again la hunney. Just pulling ur leg *grin*. I promise I won't neglect her again k, although it was unintentional. First time seh ni... :(

But rest assured, she's already been taken care of & is sleeping peacefully now :)

Thanks a lot k sayang, for collecting ma hp charger for me tomorrow...

Work-wise, it was busy yesterday. But not with customers. Only Fahmi & I were on duty & we had a lot of other things to do besides taking care of da customers. New stocks like cutleries & whatnot came & we had to wash & stack.

I'm beginning to think that PH is somehow 'haunted'.

When there are many staffs on duty there are LESS customers & not much to do. But when we're short of manpower, da restaurant will be packed to da brim! It's always like this.

Wtf...

For Once In A Long Time...

2006-07-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

For Once In A Very Long Time...

Hey peeps... how have u been? Sorry for da lack of updates. Well it's back to limited net access for me for now so that explains it. Lol. But although I don't tag in ur blogs it doesn't mean I don't read 'em aite... I still do wanna know what's going on in da lives of ma old friends & new ones too.

Well as for maself... for those who asked, life with Sham ma hunney has been nothing but wonderful. I have never felt like this in a very long time. From just mere colleagues we moved on to being food kakis, best buddies... & finally sweethearts. And da best thing is he's still ma bestfriend whom I can talk about anything under da sun. But bestest? He's really wonderful to ma kid. But we're taking it slow... I don't like to plan too far ahead as I don't wanna be disappointed when things don't work out. Hmm... I wish I can post pics of us on here but I dunno if he'll like all the attention. But rest assured I'll try to psycho him aite *wink*. Hehe...

To Sham, thanks for being da attentive & caring guy u've always been. U don't know how much this really means to me. Thank u for making ma difficult days easier to face. Lup u deep deep... lol. I'll never wanna wake up from this dream & give up on us, like u mentioned before. I'll never do that.

And I thank ma PH sweeties for their tremendous support & well wishes for us too :).

Erm... hope that isn't too mushy for u guys, eh? I can be even mushierrr u know... *questioning look*.

Eargh. I can't stay here for much longer. See ya again peeps ;)

YOU.

2006-06-30T18:15:00.000+08:00

YOU.

For 4 years, ma life was all about you. Everyday was all about you. Whatever wrong u did & I forgave, it was all because I loved you. U do things to me but I turned a blind eye cos I didn't wanna lose you. I put aside everything, including ma pride just for you. Every little thing I did, was for you & only you.

U said u have accepted da reality that u're no longer in ma heart, but yesterday u proved me right by doing da things u did, AGAIN. Da inhumanity just never ends... why can't people just live & let live? Why do u keep wanting to kill me inside..?

Now, I'm gonna have to go ma own way. I don't care just how I'm gonna do it, but I'm gone. U can't have what u used to have anymore... do I need to be sorry? Frankly I don't know. It's time I think about me. I don't wanna die regretting. It's time I rebuild ma life while I still can & while I'm still alive. U should do da same too. Do not waste ur time on me. U don't need me anymore. And I, don't need you. To be unappreciative & hating on me again. It doesn't matter what hurtful things u say to me anymore cos I. Will. Not. Budge.

I wanna be loved... and I am loved. At last.

I love u HoneyBear...

& of course, ur collection of weird-looking-but-cute 'voodoo' keychains. *Grin*

That Timely & Beautiful Dream...

2006-06-26T19:34:00.000+08:00

That Timely & Beautiful Dream...

Da dream I had last night is unforgettable...

I was walking down a winding path in a garden. I remember da surroundings looking kinda weird but da feeling was peaceful & serene... it was all green & misty around me. Although tired, I dunno why... but I walked on & on. Half expecting to see someone that I knew, but not sure who yet.

I was so anxious... yes, ma heart was beating so hard. Still, I didn't know why.

Alast, I saw a thin lone white figure seating on a bench I was approaching about 4 metres away. I squinted, couldn't quite make out who or what it was. As I approached da figure, I smiled. It was indeed someone very familiar... someone who had existed once upon a time in ma very own life. I sat down next to him, ecstatic but trying to hide ma excitedness at da same time.

Me: Abang, how are u? I miss u so much. We all do...

Him: (His handsome face smiled wistfully & gave me a small poke)... Can't u see? It's very peaceful up here. Obvious how my situation is, isn't it? And how are u dear?

Me: (Hesitating) I'm... fine. Yeah.

Him: I know what's bothering u. What's inside ur heart. U don't have to hide it from me (smiled again).

Me: (Surprised) How did u know... I mean. Like, how??

Him: Sorry dear, I'm not supposed to tell u secrets u're not supposed to know... it's not my story to tell. U'll know one day when u no longer belong to da mortal world.

Me: (Stared at him in awe) but...

Him: I know it's tough rite now, what u're going through. But believe me when I say, by next year things will improve for u, Insya-Allah (meaning: god-willing). Hold on in there my dear...

Me: Am I in a dream? If yes, why did u specially visit me of all da people u know?

Him: (Playfully) And how do u know that I don't visit other people too huh? Anyway, I did promise u I'd try right? (Laughed)

Me: (Ponders for a while, then grinned foolishly... hitting him lightly on his arm)

Him: (His brows showing a crease of concern) Just remember what I said, ok? Things are gonna improve for u. Be patient & u'll get there. Put ur mind to Allah & his greatness at all times...

Me: (Squeezing his hands gratefully) Abang, thank u. I really hope u're right.

Him: (Squeezed back gently, smiles, and faded into thin air)

Me: (Stares dreadfully with a tear rolling down ma cheek)...

That person was none other than ma late cousin, Norishyam Bin Mohamed Ali.

I called his sister da next day to tell her about da dream & she told me that his death anniversary is just next month. Coincidence? U decide... and hearing that ma fate will change for da better, from someone who is an immortal... da feeling is undescribable.

I dunno what this means, but thank u for visiting & comforting me, Abang Ishyam. May u rest in peace. Al-fatihah...

In memory of Norishyam Bin Mohamed Ali
1972-1999

I guess da reason why I was so anxious to meet him in that dream is becos, two days before his death, he did tell me that he would 'visit' me if he could & ma subconscious mind, aware of what's happening, made me anxious to meet him in that dream...

I regret not getting to know him better when he was alive. But I'm glad I still DO have da chance after all... even in his afterlife :).

Is There Such A Thing Called A Happy Blog??

2006-06-23T19:32:00.000+08:00

Is There Such A Thing Called A Happy Blog?

Not really up for a long post tonight. Just that this thought suddenly crossed ma mind.

I was blog-hopping several people's blog and happened to notice that they don't seem to have any problems in their life at all, lol. All they write about was mostly about their outings, their so-called romantic boyfriends, shopping, girrrrliesss (eww) and of course, a little bitchin' here and there...

What actually is da purpose of having a blog?

Aite, I do understand that some pple do it just to share their daily ramblings & to show da little things they probably bought at a sale *rolls eyes*... and whatever. I also know that some of them don't write about their problems in their blogs (unless it's a private one). But thing is, do we really need to lie to people out there that we have 'happy' lives? U mean we shop everyday? Get to meet your boyfriends everyday? U even have time to take pics with ur girrrlies everyday? If ma life is even HALF as easy as that, I wouldn't even have to set up a blog, I think. LOL.

It's time to wake up & smell da smelly socks, people. A happy blog doesn't have to be full of pictures or romantic stories. A HAPPY blog is a healthy blog which is full of ups & downs. U actually may talk about ur sadness about something that happened to you, but u may not neccessarily need to specify what really went wrong, if it's too personal. Just talking about how u feel makes ur readers feel more closer to u. And reading ur blog will feel much more real to ur readers and not just reading about some boring trivial things.

Drop da pretence already dears... we all know da world ain't perfect & everyone has problems of their own :).

Yes, I'm bitchin'. But just a little bit. I hate pretentious people who try to promote their blog to me only for me to find that da contents are useless. I'm talking about da ah-lian lookalikes out there in Friendster who asked me to link them up to their stupid blogs. And continue to bug me about it. I'm like thinkin', ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME? ME... link to YOUR blog??

May da force be with u.

Hate ma guts? That's me, take it or leave it. Wanna send me hate mail, go ahead. I'm all game =)

Aaaaaah! A load off ma chest at last *smiles*.... I'm going to bed!

*Waves at ma lurvely peeps*

PS: To someone out there; I dunno how long u're gonna last... but time is ticking. Quick, take out da batteries! :)

I'm Lost... Again.

2006-06-22T18:34:00.000+08:00

I'm Lost... Again.

I feel like going bonkers rite now. I dunno where to go from here, and what to do. What da hell... :(

I seriously need to breathe. And calm down.

Like what Alif said, I should probably take things slowly & take one step at a time. Hope that will be stuck in ma head. Cos sometimes I tend to be too fast :S

I love these peeps to bits... for being ma pillar of strength & retaining ma sanity at the end of da day. Yes, Atikah ma daughter, and ma two besties... Inah & Sham.

Sorry, I know ma posts have started to get a lil' pathetic. Like the owner, haha. But just hang in there alright...

Oh well... anyone up for some serious lo que paso, paso-ing wit me?

I think we all really need it, lol.

PS: I'm loving it, this song from Ciara - AND I. Check it out on ma video playlist ;)

Provided By MetroLyrics

Again, So Little Time, So Much To Do...

2006-06-21T13:31:00.000+08:00

Again, So Little Time, So Much To Do...

Sorry for da lack of updates of late :(. No I ain't slacking. So many things are happening at da same time rite now. Big changes. But that's another story altogether.

Cabbage patch has had day surgery this afternoon at TTSH. Yan & I couldn't stand her scratching & pawing on her swollen & itchy eyelids which hasn't healed despite medication for weeks. So we decided to set up an appointment yesterday for a minor op to burst her swollen upper & lower lids :S. Even setting up da appointment took da whole day for us. We had to see about 2 doctors & 3 medical personnels before we finally secured an appointment date, which was today. It was so time-consuming... by da time I met da last medical officer, I had this fucked-up sour face. We were all so tired from waiting & waiting in those cold receptions & rooms. Sadly, it was da same today too. Luckily this time we had our own room to rest in while waiting for her op. There was tv & phone as well.

Thank God for da toys given & da tv in da room, to keep her occupied while waiting.

Yet another ugly picture of me. Yeah I look washed out I know :S. Didn't have enuff sleep.

One of da sweet doctors blew up a latex glove for ma daughter as a balloon. Look at da cute drawings on it :).

She woke up kicking & screaming from da pain after the op. And probably she was still groggy from da general anesthesia given during surgery. Poor daughter of mine... I love u sweet darling.

Yan's taking care of her in da morning tomorrow while it will be ma turn when I come home from work in da evening. Cabbage patch is still asleep :/. From da time the op ended, till now. But before we went home she did wake up on & off. Sheesh... this means that she'd probably wake up at night tonight.

And I am working in da morning. Great. Just great.

Sleep is a luxury, nowadays.

PS: And to Yan, despite all the ugly things that has been happening between us, I have to say that u're still da responsible father I used to know & still know. I acknowledge that & I thank u so much for your commitment to our child. And although we're separating soon, thanks for putting our differences aside during this time.I really appreciate it.

Just Ma Lil' Thoughts Before I Attempt To Sleep Again ;p

2006-06-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

Just Ma Lil' Thoughts Before I Attempt To Sleep Again... ;p

"Again?" U must be thinking what on earth I meant by that. I went to bed at about 1.30am & thought I could drift away as usual when I'm tired, but I kept tossing & turning for TWO FULL HOURS. Ma nose is stuffy & ma body feels uncomfortable :(. I think I might be coming down with something. But I really hope not. Dear me, I fall sick easily. But I also recover easily. For people who have stronger resistance to illnesses, they may take some time to fully recover when they do fall sick. U may not agree with me on this but well... I'm just speaking from experience.

I wanna throw a birthday celebration for ma kid in August. Doesn't have to be a big, grand affair. In fact I may just invite close friends & relatives... it feels warmer that way don't u think :)? Thing is, I just have no idea how & where to organise da party :S. Any ideas? At da most, I'll probably buy her a huuuuge birthday cake & celebrate with a simple dinner at home. And oh yea, with lots & lots of candles for her to blow :). She loves candles. Either that or I'm gonna pack small goodie packs for her classmates, buy her a cake & let them celebrate there. Or even both! Omg, I'm goin' a little too far I know. Blame it on this time of da morning aite *frowns*...

Hmm...

I think ma K750i needs a new look. What do u suggest I shall put on it? Colourful silicone case? BLING stickers? Where to get that anyway? Black is starting to get boring :(. PLEASE, peeps! Lemme hear ur voice, gimme some ideas. About ma daughter's b-day & this.

PS: I'm kinda excited about Sunday, can't wait. Will tell u about it layta ;). Or, I might not. *Grin*

Aite, I'll try to attempt to get ma so-called beauty sleep again. Hmph. Wish me success.

Da restless one & da dreamy one, at Fork & Spoon food court.

When Da Waves Come A-Beating....

2006-06-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

When Da Waves Come A-Beating....

I don't even know if that's even da proper English to put it... lol *scratches head*. Fuck. Ma mood swings are driving me maad. One minute I can be hyper, one minute I'm nasty & feel like screaming. Another minute I could eat like a pig, then I'd find maself with no appetite for hours. What da fish.

Anyway, I'm sure some of u know da reason why. But let's not go there... *sigh*.

Went to ma aunt's kenduri-cum-open house two days ago. As expected, da buffet was delish but this time round it wasn't ma eldest aunt who cooked, due to her not being in good health these days. We had to order from catering service. Makan sampai tiga kali u (I mentioned being gluttony, remember?). Felt really good to get away from things for a while & chill with ma kuzzins. Play catch-up, anything at all...

And now... it's time for u to see my selenger hair!

Don't worry, I've gotten over it, k? Lol...

Me & ma lil' kuzz Meera. Picwhores, lol.

Selenger nak mampos eh??

Aik? So old also want to play hopscotch ah??

With Sha-sha... ma 'long lost' relative. Haha.

She was evidently havin' a good time. Everyone wanted to play with her lol.

Us... again.

What a huuge living room! U just gotta love this place.

Oh yea, I forgot to post da pic of Zyzy & me when I brought her to dine at ma workplace, lol.

For more details, go visit Zyzy's Friendster blog :)

*Sniff*.

I hope Selvan (ma manager) will really gimme that wakey call 1st thing in da morning, or I'm gonna be late again.

Ou+Z!

Da Wrong Cut

2006-06-11T12:31:00.000+08:00

Da Wrong Cut

I woke up this morning & felt pretty weird. Then I realised that ma long hair... is no longer spread on ma pillow when I sleep.

That's right, I had a haircut. But...

da hairdresser cut it too short for ma liking :(. Now it's just shoulder-length. And why did she have to cut it one-length at the ends instead of layering it? Gosh. She obviously wasn't paying attention to ma instructions. Customers have commented that I still look like a teenager & now thanks to that nyonya, I now look like how I was in... primary 5? Haiz...

On da lighter side, however, I don't have to tie up ma hair at work if I don't want to. That's quite a change. Not too bad.

Pics of me in ma new 'do? Heh, not yet. Wait till I really get over the embarrassment k? Lol.

I actually have a lot to post but I don't really have da mood to update so much. But eventually I will, aite...

It Never Rains. It Pours.

2006-06-07T07:00:00.000+08:00

It Never Rains. It Pours.

I don't know what to say or do anymore. All I know is that a lot of damage has been done over da years & I don't know if it can ever be repaired again.

Too many times... we've been hurt...

Too many times... I've been kept waiting...

Too many times... we keep trying to hurt u & me...

Too many times... we try to fight to stay alive....

And nothing seems to work anymore :(. Nuthin'. I'm tired of cold wars & all da fighting. It's just not me. I know that u've sacrificed a lot for me & I appreciate your being there in our early years. I'm sorry that it must turn out this way. As much as I've forgiven u for da wrongs u did to me, I hope u would forgive me too...

If u won't forgive me, it's alright. I understand that.

Things may not be da same, but wherever u go... just remember that I still care for u. I will take da good memories we used to share, with me.

I know u're reading this...

I'm sorry I'm such a failure.

:(

Da Real Slim Shady

2006-06-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

Da Real Slim Shady

Anto, u always said I look like Lina rite?

Can u see da difference between us now??

Now take THIS!

Lol...

... we really had a good laugh when we took this yesterday.

PS: Just to remind u again, I was born FIRST. So she's supposed to be da one who look like ME. Bluek!

But I have to admit though, our friends say I look like her especially in these pics.

*Rolls eyes*.

Ok ok. So this is what Lina really look like, for those who dunno aite?

Similar? Don't let this haunt u.

Same chubby cheeks. Same pouty lips. Same cat-like eyes. Same 'sharp teeth' when we smile, lol... that's what Lina & I always talk about. But I just wish I have her figure. I'm basically a stick-insect. And while she's gorgeous, I'm (plain) Jane.

Pfffft. I don't have an unique face. Pple always said that I look like their ex-gf/ex-fiancee/cousin/sister/whatevah. Bleah :(

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Yesternite was all good. For once I felt kinda carefree & butterfly-like. Work was fun. Ma colleagues & I took some pics together... who knows, tomorrow might be da last day I'll be in PH. For da rest of da week I'll be undergoing training for da managerial post after all... *sigh.

3rd June: June, Me, Farikha, Diana ma lil' sis & Aini. Havin' a little feast of our own after closing...

4th Jun nite service staff: Gagendran, Zhong Wei, June, Fiza, Me & Lijin.

I'm really just one of da boyz... sometimes.

Me seen here with Zhong Wei. Dunno why, but I always call him Pai kia & he calls me Boss, haha.

Off to bed *yawn...* hope u enjoyed da pics.

What Do I Do Now...?

2006-06-02T17:01:00.000+08:00

What Do I Do Now...?

Woke up TERRIBLY late for work yesterday, lol. I was told to be at work by 9am intead of 11 cos there would be a kitchen tour by some kids from dunno where, lol. Office & even ma sis called me up & I was still snoring away like a pig at 10.20am. Eventually da swine woke up. Luckily ma duty manager is a very understanding person. He knew that I was doing closing da night before, so I sure was effing shagged. Anyway this is ma very first time waking up late since I worked for PH.

Well here's news for u. Good and bad news.

I've been offered a job in one of da fast-food restaurants as floor manager. Yes, no kidding. I went for da interview like 3 weeks ago & only received a call from them when I was at work today. I'd like to go for it, but thing is... (here's where da bad news comes in); I'd have to work mostly da afternoon to closing shift :(. Oh dear... what do I do now? Cabbage patch is mostly in daycare during da day, but during da evenings usually it's me who will be taking care of her. We don't have a babysitter. And next Monday I'm expected to turn up for training. How do I get an evening babysitter at such a short notice? And of cos, I need to get her familiarised with her new caregiver first, right? Argh! I'm really at ma wit's end.

Diana & Farikha (our colleague) told me to go for it. Ma 'kitchen buddy' is sad to see me go though *grin*... Actually I'm also quite hesitant to leave ma peeps at PH behind, lol. Maybe I'll just give it a shot at da training. Who knows what will happen. But I won't erase ma name off PH yet. If I da new job doesn't suit me I can always go back. Even ma sis did that. AND, if I really have to work mostly in the evenings, I'll give it a pass. Hopefully other opportunities will come. I will be quitting ma tutor job soon, so working for PH alone will not be enuff for me financial-wise.

So don't worry mmkay... ma 'kitchen buddy'.... :). We're gonna still be partners in crime for now. 'Stealing' food together when we're hungry, that is. Haha... everyone in PH is guilty of that!

Gotta catch some shleep now. Don't want ma morning to end up like yesterday's ;p.

PS: I'm tired of switching jobs. When will ma big break finally come?

Spilling Da Beans

2006-06-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

Spilling Da Beans

Hmm... why is everyone revealing what's inside their bags in their blogs? Rohani, u want to see what's in mine, right? Haha... look in on ma boring contents...

*Ma no-longer-so-nice makeup bag, dusty in fact. *Lucidol hair wax... yes I DO use wax, for days when ma hair look freakin' afro-ish & lacklustre (can't believe I spent over 7 bucks on it!) *Ma 3 lip glosses in nude, peach & cherry to suit the occasion & mood (I'm greedy, u see). *Victoria's Secret lotion (u can only find this in the US. Forgot ur perfume? This will do, it smells sooo heavenly sexy!) *Loreal duo eyeshadow... this is ma fave, u haven't seen da rest. *Ma blusher from bodyshop (partially hidden in makeup bag) to fake a healthy flush cos I always look like a 'mayat' when I'm listless) *Two different 2-way cakes (so I can determine whether I wanna look fair or slightly tanned, heh... told u I'm greedy. *Ma eye & brow liner (cheap one lah, no brand. As long as it's brownish black & its texture ain't too dry). *And lastly, Loreal Voluminous Mascara (it's at da dark corner, spot it)... I have sleepy-looking eyes like all da time so this makes ma eyes 'wake-up'.

*Ma Sony Ericsson K750i is both ma digicam & MP3 ... and phone, of course ;) (used to carry a Stylus Verve & a Creative Nomad & found it such a nuisance to carry both).

And how can I forget? *Ma lifesavers... ma boring-but-sexily-serious-looking leather wallet. *Ma keys; the ones tagged with da Anna keychain are ma housekeys, while da one with da pink Bali surfboard is ma locker key at work. Keychains were gifts from friends. And I can't do without ma *Olay UV Whitening Lotion (not that I'm dark, but it's an excellent base with ma makeup & I don't look listless with it).

Besides these I also carry ma inhaler (I'm asthmatic), grey lenses, tissue papers, a novel sometimes & ... guess what? A granny brush! It's so HUUUGE. Too embarrassed to show it here, la. Too much hair on it ;p.

And when one tries to outdo Doraemon, what does one end up with...?

A torn workbag! Sob sob... ma poor white bag... now I have to buy another one when I get ma buckaroos :(. I'm sooo si-beh-violent.

This Is Madness!

2006-05-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

This Is Madness!

First & foremost, I would like to apologise to Juliah for not being able to attend her lovely wedding yesterday. I had tons of things to do at the 11th hour... I just dunno how to put it. Plus I also had to tutor 2 kids on da same day. I sincerely hope we could meet up again someday & I shall make it up to u... boy do I feel bad!

Hmm... last month I discovered 'extra bucks' in ma bank account. An enquiry made to POSB on da phone revealed that someone had indeed transferred some money to ma account. At first I thought that person must have sent it to da wrong account number or something. Afraid that he/she would make a report if I don't hand over da money back, I asked da customer service officer if there was any way that he could trace the account of da person who sent da money & guess what, he couldn't! He said he only could trace roughly what time da money was transferred but there was no way he identify da account which da money came from. How ridiculous. Canggih2 gitu pun, takkanlah takleh check? If they can be so advanced in their banking systems, why can't they do a SIMPLE database just for tracking transactions like this?

I thought it was just an isolated incident. After about a week with no claims from da transferee, I took out da money & used it mostly to ferry ma kid to school everyday. It's not cheap. On days that she throw tantrums it's very hard to get her ass in a bus... so sometimes I have to take a cab. Then earlier this month, da same thing happened again. And this time, the amount was more than what I had received previously! So I made a call to da bank again & got da same stupid answer again. Bodoh kan... I was advised to wait for a few days more just in case if there're any claims made by a customer to da bank. But, no. Nuthin' again. So... finders keepers la. At least in this case, it is. LOL.

*Scratches ma un-itchy head*

I asked Yan if he had made any transfer to ma bank account lately & he said no. Even if he did, he would have told me about it. And only him & ma lil' sis know of ma account number... I wouldn't divulge such info to any other person.

Who could it be huhh..?

Some INVISIBLE SUGARDADDY ah?

PS: DO NOT ask me if I really wrote this at 6am cos seriously, I DON'T KNOW WHY o_0

'Spoiler Of Da Month?'

2006-05-28T06:27:00.000+08:00

Spoiler Of Da Month

Farrrk. I will be assigned for cashiering duties soon. Now I'm on training. And it's effing stressful especially if da restaurant is jam-packed like sardin dalam tin & da customers are super impatient. What if give da wrong change to da customers when I'm in a hurry? What if there were shortage of cash in da till? And what if da shortage is a huge amount? What if... what if... aiyah there's so many what ifs. Of course, I have worked as cashier before but all it required me to do was scanning in da stupid item barcode, da price will show up & dat's basically IT. But this, I find that da navigations are tough. I hope that I'll be able to conquer this one real soon. Just like ma sis, when she first had to do cashiering she was afraid too but now she's a pro. Perogol. Haha.

I'm working da afternoon shift today, till closing time. I almost wish I'm not working today, haha. Never mind.... Sunday's ma day off.

Oh yah, not really... I still have to tutor 2 of ma students tomorrow.

See? Even da Banglas have off days. Aku je takde.

PS: Oi Shaaaz! This is the only pic u have from Lisa's b-day? What about da one that I want?

Feeling Tired & Lazy Rite Now...

2006-05-25T17:20:00.000+08:00

Feeling Tired & Lazy Rite Now...

I'm rather shagged. Been working for long hours everyday, one of which was slightly more than 12 hours...

Mum gave me false alarm when I was at work. Kept screaming & ranting on da phone that cabbage patch did not go to school. I was shocked, especially when Yan was to be on da night shift & that he's supposed to send her to school so that I could pick her up after work. So like a mad woman I left work early (we no longer have a residential phone, that was why I couldn't check it out from work) & I was so pissed when I didn't find her at home. Yan said he did send her to school, but only around 11.20am did they reach there. She really shouldn't have screamed on da phone without investigating first. Now it was my turn to scream when I called her up at home. Grrrrr. How I wish she could be less dramatic!

Ma hair is getting long... it's not that obvious in this pic, but in another 2/3 of it's length rite now it could reach ma butt (so don't be fooled by some of ma pics with fringe or with shorter hair, cos they might be pics from 2004 for all I care :p). Now that it's getting longer I find that I dunno what to do with it. It looks kinda boring. VERY tempted to cut it again with layers & straighten it, tapi cam sayang gitu eh.... cane seh? Any suggestions? I thought of digital/ceramic perming it towards the ends, do some soft waves or somethin', but I heard it doesn't last long... any suggestions? Email wo okay... *yawn*

OMG...

2006-05-22T19:18:00.000+08:00

OMG... *looks idiotic*

I must be that bored to put up 3 vids here... haha. Anyway I figured that I may not be able to blog for a few days, so I hope da vids & games will keep u peeps engaged till ma next post. I'm not neglecting ya, see? Hehe...

I woke up at 1.30am (due to ma stupid wheezing) & can't sleep till now :(. It's stupid. I'm working layta today & I'm STILL sick. It's just DOWNRIGHT UNACCEPTABLE.

Anyone up for tucking me rite back into bed..?

On Ma Day Off... Should I Be Yayy-ing?

2006-05-21T03:30:00.000+08:00

On Ma Day Off... Should I be Yayy-ing?

Da big reveal: Comparison between Papa Kentucky & lil' Cabbage Patch is so great, I couldn't resist snapping away.

*Smiles wistfully*

My... how she has grown. Okay, maybe not so much, height-wise. Lol.

Mum's finishing work at 3pm today, and she wants her grand-daughter to stay for da night. And I'm on two days off. Figuring out what I should do while I have time to maself for once. It has been all work & no play for about two months now. Yatie told me about a part-time banquet job at one of da Suntec's Convention Halls later in the evening... the remuneration sounds great but I'm dunno if I'm going for it. I need a break from work; any sort of work. Even ma tutoring has taken a backseat. It's kinda hard to juggle all three (2 jobs + Atikah) at once.

Shucks. I've been having da wheeze for a few days too. And ma inhaler doesn't seem to work as effectively...

Ma fave cough & sore throat remedy... Nin Jiom Pei Pa Koa aka 'Ubat Batuk Cap Ibu Dan Anak'. But what I see on its box is more like da pic of a father & his child, rather than mother & her child... (ke aku yang kero ni? hmm...)

On another thought, maybe ringing up ma workplace to see if they have enuff manpower today is a good idea, since I have nothing to do & cabbage patch won't be at home. But, it's not so often that pple in the F&B line have da whole of da weekends off, so why not relax? Oh yeah, & da wheezing. Oh dear me... *sniff*, what was I thinking? Can't imagine what if I passed out at work due to breathlessness... haha. Haiz... si semp0t ni!

Flashing our best smiles... that's da reason why u should dine here (ehhhh... tak tau malu!)

Me: *Sibuk-sibuk kat tepi* Playing gooseberry with Fiza & Hafiz??

Another shot with Fitriza at da salad bar...

And believe it or not, this pic of me in ma wallet still freaks me out a little... I look at least TWENTY-FOUR in this makeover picture that was taken 6 years ago! Do the math. *Grin*.

Ma 'old' pic.

Going off to cook lunch. There's only cabbage patch & me in da house. Then, I'll figure out what to do today. Ka-CHING!

PS: I'm kinda frustrated, ma Tic-Tac-Toe computer opponent cheats a hell lot... haha. Go to da games section here to play & see what I mean :)

Letting Off Steam

2006-05-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

Letting Off Steam

Well this is quite a random post.

I have to say... I'm very angry right now. I'm angry at the world. I'm angry at u, I'm angry at ur mom, I'm angry at ur grandmother, and I'm angry at ur dad. I'm angry at everybody. including maself. How could I be so angry, u ask? Well... call me a wacko, or whatever u want. I'm only human. I'm so fucking angry, I feel like I have a hole inside of myself, and it's growing bigger and bigger and bigger until I can see through maself, like a cannon has shot it's cannonball right through ma solar plexus.

I have come to da point where I dunno where else to go. I dunno what to do with ma life. I am no longer motivated. I feel displaced, like I no longer belong. I do not want to do this anymore. I can't. I'm bored, tired, listless, angry, pissed, annoyed, and depressed. I'm boring holes inside of maself as though I never existed before. I'm just firewood, floating in the ocean until the next unsuspecting oil tanker comes by and freaks da fuck out and spills all of it's valuable blood all over ma fucking back. Come on, u fucking pig, kill me! Do it now!!

A Tribute To A Friend...

2006-05-15T18:34:00.000+08:00

A Tribute To A Friend...

I hope by the end of this post, u know who u are.

U know... lol, I used to be quite intimidated by u in school. U appeared very confident, were loud & outspoken, whereas I wasn't. But after chatting with u in msn just now I'm glad to get to know u much better now. I feel that we lost out a lot on those secondary school years. We didn't get to know each other as we were in totally different stream & cliques. I can see that u're a much more calmer person than u were da last time, way better than me.

It breaks ma heart to know that u're feeling sad rite now. U lost one... along came another man; a good man whom u truly love, only for him to leave for some place far far away. Nothing could prepare one for what will happen few years down da road. It's never easy... I truly understand what u are imagining. When u're lonely, there'll be no shoulder u could lean on to. When u're in need of a hug, his familiar scent isn't there anymore...

But sometimes... tests of time do make a relationship stronger. Remember da story of ma aunt I told ya? I really hope that inspired u. At least, a little.

Trust me... u're such a wonderful girl... he'll never forget u. Hold on to ur love, girl. Be strong for him. When u're down, he'll feel it too. Especially when he's going to a place so alien to him; and have to be away from his family, his friends... worse still, you. I'm sure deep inside, he doesn't feel any better than u do rite now. Lend him ur strength... be his pillar. Give him something to hold on to. Think of da good life u'll both lead when he's successful. U'll never look back :).

And even though I can't do more for u, u guys will always be in ma prayers :). Semoga Allah terangkan dan tenangkan hati kau sepanjang perjalanan yang penuh dugaan ini. Insya-Allah, u guys can go thru this hurdle *hug*.