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Thursday, October 25, 2007

HURT & UNPLUGGED!

So far I have not blogged about ma problems with YOU at all. But you have not really considered ma feelings before you let da public in on your emotions in ur blog... about me... & some of da shit that has been happening. Do u think they are stupid? Do u happen to think that they wouldn't have da slightest clue what da hell u're talking about? U're fucking wrong.

I have not done this for the longest time either. I just hate slamming people (on blogs). How I wish the anger can just fade away at a blink at an eye. But no, sweetie, it really doesn't work that way, not in this life. You tell me how to appease ma anger? Oh wait, I should be da one to ask you to do that for ME.

U tell me she's cross-eyed & ugly? And that u're not interested in her? Don't gimme that! Self-check 1st, takmo MACAM PAHAM... u gave her your number like it was nothing to you. KUCING LAPAR MANA NAK REJECT IKAN ATAS PIRING? Oh, crossed-eyed women got no vagina is it?? Still a woman what. This is not a case of da green-eyed monster la. But it's about your damn principles. Now I do not know when did this rule apply to this relationship, that u can freely distribute your hp number like pamphlets while I should shun men who want to get to know me. Kenapa, awak kesian sangat kat dia pasal dia keRO, tak laku?! Go & marry her, I wouldn't even bat an eyelid. But don't do things behind ma back. How do I trust you that u haven't gone out on a date with her at all...? You have known her for ONE WHOLE FUCKING MONTH & I'm completely in da dark! And I've been so honest to u about ma social life all along? What da fuck are u doing to me? This is already da 2nd time this sort of thing happen.

And that was one hell of a girl. What a muthafucking coward she was. If not for the minor accident I had that nite, I wouldn't have da hunch to listen to his voicemail, tu pun dah lama tak dengar. Suara takmo step manja ah gerl. Tak padan kero eh ;p. Dah tahu org ada matair, nak kenal2 jugak. Nampak gambar aje dah TERPEGUN?? I only called her nicely to know who she was, and she hung up immediately. Da 2nd time, she simply made me 'wait long long' b4 rejecting ma kol. That freaking bitch. I couldn't contact ma BF that nite & I was at the hospital receiving outpatient treatment. Again, I only wanted to know who she was & tell her to convey da msg to him should she managed to reach him 1st after he comes home & charges his moby. But no, she chose the other way round. SHE CHOSE TO INCUR MA WRATH.

Eh sundal, if u got no guilty conscience, why were u afraid of me? I hadn't even intoduced maself yet & u hung up. U expected this to happen & yet still play around with that little matchstick in your hands huh? Kalau kau tak buat salah, ataupun tak fikir apa2 kat matair org, kau tak akan takut, BODOH. U're the cheapest thing I've ever seen in ma life, sungguhpun kau tak lawa! Eh takde rupa takpelah pompuan, asalkan diri mau jaga suah! Tapi dua2 kau takde. Muka pon SCRAP, langgar lori punya. Perangai lak mcm sial lagi.

*Takes a deep breath*...

Ok. This has been intense, But please try to understand. I was injured, head spinning & needed him at that time. Instead, such surprise happened. Is it fair to me? I have not done this to him before so why is this happening? B, I won't try to stop u from continuing your friendship with her la, after all, u contacted her behind ma back... what's to stop you from doing it again if I restrict your friendship huh? That will hurt me even more.

You claimed that u have never met her, only know what she looks like by description. WHATEVER. But remember I told you? If it goes further & further beyond friendship, I WILL NOT HESITATE TO LET YOU GO. I won't be fighting over a dick with some shameless fugly girl. And u know what disappoints me da most..? I look up to you a lot & u've always potrayed urself to be da sweetest & da best boyfriend anyone could ever have, but in the end... u snuck around. How long will this facade of yours last huh? NI BENDA KARUT SEMUA AKU TAK PERNAH BUAT!

As the saying goes, they start small... then move on to 'win big'. Will u try & do something worse..? I dunno.... really.

Just tell me if these are all fair to me? I am so HURT.

Missed by Anna... ♥
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